On Writing #7 · 1:49pm Nov 14th, 2017
Writing chapter dos of Last Love. It’s... coming along. I mean, it’s like 6500 words long, so far, with a tentative projection of it being like 15k words long by the time I’m done with it. Cause apparently I write long as fuck chapters now.
So it’s definitely “coming along”.
It’s just... hm. Lately, I’ve really been feeling kind of lonesome. I’ve been on the site for like damn near five years, now, and have made a total of 0 friends. There was Lion, there for a while, but he’s long gone.
It’s a strange situation to find yourself in. I have absolutely no problem with going it alone. But I also think that my writing suffers for it. Everyone says that you need outside eyes and outside opinions when writing, but I’ve always just made up for this fact by obsessively making sure my own eyes are enough. Before I post anything I look it over from top to bottom at least fifteen times. I have programs that read text out loud to me and I put the chapter through several times to make sure I like what I’m hearing.
But lately, I’ve been feeling like it’s not really the same. Like I was writing just now, actually--this scene of Dash stuck in a math class. And I could just feel myself writing just to write. Like, nothing was fucking happening in the scene. It’s boring and I know that it’s boring, but it’s not like I have anyone there to link the Gdoc to and ask “Hey what can I do to get from point A to point B instead of this stupid, boring, drawn-out scene?”
So, since I have nobody to brainstorm with I’m just gonna leave the scene and ignore it--maybe I’ll come back to it after all is said and done and fix it somehow, but I doubt it.
Eh. I’m just in a mood, I guess, and I’m reminiscing about how easy it used to be to be excited about this pony stuff. When you enter the fandom it really does just jump-start your imagination and your creativity, and all you can really think about is ponies ponies ponies. I wonder if there’s a way to recapture that feeling, but I doubt it. Been giving some thought about watching the show from the beginning, to see if that will help. But again, I doubt it. Still probably gonna do it, though. Just cause.
Sorry you're feeling so isolated, especially in a place that is so full of friendship possibilities. Feel free to drop me a line on Discord, even if it says I'm offline. I might not actually be.
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling lonely. I do find it hard to strike up conversations online since you never actually see people and do not get to see random things to start a conversation. For instance as lame as it is you can get a conversation in person just by saying "how is the weather" in person but it does not really work in an online setting.
I am excited to hear that you are working on the next chapter though.
I like to think you're a friend. You're part of why I got the confidence to get back to writing on some stuff. I'm always open to jaw when you are, bud.