Hello Again · 6:18am Aug 22nd, 2017
I dunno what I'm going to call this...
Hey guys. It's... well it's me. Y'know me! It's... it's me.
Yeah... it's been four months since my last blog. Dunno how long since I last published anything. Don't wanna check; far too depressing. Even just typing this I can feel how rusty I am; my fingers feel sluggish and clumsy, there are a dozen red lines already... ugh. I haven't written anything in awhile. I don't think that's much of a surprise, honestly. I've been going bad, reading my old blogs... so much hope and determination in them. I... don't know where it went. Did you know I've been on this site for 5 years now? I haven't even celebrated the past two anniversaries. They used to be such big events for me. I'd go back and recap what I've written in the past year...
This is... this is the most foreboding blog I've ever had to make. The only reason I'm making this is because I want to let you all know I'm not dead. I still read every comment on everything. But I say that knowing that of all the authors who have left this site, many of their last blogs were... this. Them just saying they weren't dead. Is that my fate? is this my final blog on this site?
I don't know.
The thought of leaving this site - this fandom - used to terrify me. I was convinced I'd be here until the site was shut down. I suppose... I was young. And foolish. Or perhaps I was right; I still have no desire to leave. I still read the fics here. I still want to write.
You guys know by now that I can't promise anything. I have 3 massive fics in the works, I have a million one-shot ideas. Hell, not too long ago I wrote a gay sex story just to see if I could. (Not clop- they were human and it had nothing to do with mlp). I'm told it was pretty okay. Maybe I should write a clopfic. Ha. Not likely. I'd probably publish under an alt account if I ever did.
Anyway... point is... Hi. I'm not dead. My life has just been... confusing. Lacking direction. And as a result, my writing fell to the wayside. One of the reasons I'm even writing this blog is to prepare myself to get back into writing. I opted out of a Counter Strike match for this!... god thats sad. I used to love writing. It used to be no contest; writing would win unless I was playing with friends. Oh well. I suppose... that's just what happens when you don't even try to keep writing. I think I'm going to try another "Write x amount a day" thing. No idea if I can keep up with it, or if it will go anywhere, but... for the first time in a very long time I have an urge to write. To create, to do something productive with my life. Lord knows I'm not doing that at my job...
*sigh* but that's a story for a different blog if I can keep this up. I'll talk to you all later. Hopefully.
Until next time,
Kodeake out
Glad to see you possibly back.
I think the last time I saw anything by you in my feed was when you still had that Pony Maker esque profile pic.
If you're going to try and set 'x amount in y time' goals, don't go too overboard. It'll probably do more harm than good. I say probably because some people work better under pressure.
Also, while you're trying to get back into it, I'm still trying to get started. My reasons for taking so long to write something again are the same as yours, plus school, moving, and the lack of a good internet connection. I hope to see some stuff from you, but don't get worked up about it.
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Honestly I've always worked better under pressure. For me, writing is my stress relief. It's why I wrote so much in school - and why I stopped when I left. School stressed me out, and I used that to fuel my writing. Work has never stressed me, and as a result, no fuel to throw on the writing fire. Many of my writer friends experienced the same thing when they came out of school. I'm hoping to get mine back. I've written over 500 words just since I published this blog.
Anyway, best of luck to you in your own endeavours.
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Well; what works, works.
Good luck to you, as well. I've seen far too many people I'm following leave.
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Oh my God I know why I can't write shit during the summer now,
Hey Kodeake if this is the classic "i'm not dead" and then proceed to die blog posts don't worry I'll just have to binge all your other twidash stories and then appreciate what we got from you. I don't know if you're gonna live or not and i dont think you do either, but just know that a guy who enjoys your content will just appreciate what he got from you
Good luck, Kodiake. It may help you to know I was in much the same position. I even made a blog announcing I would give up righting, but do know it is possible to come back from that.
If you're ever haing trouble, find something you really want to write and that you're passionate about, and don't let anything get in your way-- even yourself.
*hugs*
Hiya!
Hope this turns out alright, I do wish to see your incomplete fics completed.
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I've read (and heard) a number of times that instead of approaching it with write x amount of words to say I will sit down and "write" for x amount of time could be a more healthy way of doing it.
And the "writing" would be to sit down in front of your medium of choice and not do anything else. Whether or not you actually write or not is secondary to taking the time to do it as in not checking email or youtube or whatever.
I may be a bit fuzzy in the explanation, and it may or may not be for everyone but it could be worth a try.
Hello.
For what it's worth, I'm still here lurking around.