I'm sorry

So... that Scarlet Speedster fic, huh?

Yeah. I know it's been a LONG while since I've published it, and it hasn't even gotten updated. I know some of you were actually excited to see where this would go, only for it not to appear in the tracking bookshelf. So, straight to the point.

I'm not as good as I thought.

Now let me be clear, this isn't a depressing blog or a cry for help, I'm just stating a fact that I've come to realize. I thought that when I finally got a proper fanfiction on this website, it would be the start of my writing journey. Unfortunately, there are some things getting in the way of that journey.

1 - Motivation
To be honest, when I started this story, I expected to go all Beethoven on my keyboard, writing down masterpieces of chapters every day. In reality, however, it just didn't happen. I slowly stopped working on it at all, and there were times where I actually forgot about this. I do want to see this story go places, but I just can't seem to push myself to properly work.

2 - Words
If there's one this I LOVE about fics, it's the word count. When I'm searching for fics, I'll most likely choose the longest one. This one will keep me satisfied longer, and I don't have to wait for that satisfying ending. When I see my chapters, I'm constantly thinking that I should be able to write thousands of words for each chapter, because I like those better. Whenever I see a story with a high word count, but it's spread throughout so many chapter with a hundred each, I just keep scrolling. I myself am a fast reader, so I feel like I just take ten seconds to read a short chapter, then I constantly keep pressing the next button.
I want to be able to write so much, but I'm just not that talented. I'll probably get better with practice, but I'm not too confident in my writing.

3 - Readers
Even as I write this, I keep thinking about how no one will read this. I realize the exaggeration in the previous sentence, but I really don't think so many people know who I am, or even know what I do. I admit, with just one story, and that story is barely started, there isn't any reason for anyone to know me. The logical part of me knows this, but since when did logic ever properly comfort anyone? If you know for a fact that nothing isn't going to jump out of the dark, why are you still just a little scared?
My point is, I feel like just some small whisper in a colossal, thundering crowd.

Wow. Looking back at the rest of this, I may have accidentally tapped into some personal issues. Less about me, MORE ABOUT PONIES!

So I WILL try to keep working on The Scarlet Speedster of Manehattan, but I have just one request.

If anyone who reads this actually wants to see more of me or this story, PLEASE COMMENT! This is to tell me that someone who is following my work actually exists. I don't know if anyone will even read this, but at least tell your friends to read the first bit of the story, and if I should continue.

Really, I just want someone to say, "Hey! The 72nd Hunter just wrote something. I should see it!"

Hoping for anyone,
The 72nd Hunter

Comments

[Crack-Fic Casey]

To be honest, when I started this story, I expected to go all Beethoven on my keyboard, writing down masterpieces of chapters every day.

Everyone does this, and all of them are wrong.

Here's the main thing: no one is good when they start. That's a nice way of saying everyone sucks when they start. If you want my advice: Write out the entire story before you post it. IF you don't finish it, that's not a big deal. Just do something else. This is practise. If it doesn't turn out well, that's okay. The most important thing is building momentum. Write as much as possible, and then work on making it good later.

If anyone who reads this actually wants to see more of me or this story, PLEASE COMMENT! 

I hope you continue, but wouldn't get scared of a lack of responses. I spent a year and a half writing The More Things Change, and I don't think I got any comments at all. Write for you.