Why sometimes I wish I was dead. · 9:15pm Jul 6th, 2017
Cause I'm a failure. I'm the biggest failure you're ever gonna meet other than certain other people...why? few reasons.
1: I have no job, i'm about 24 right now, and I live with my parents.
2: i constantly get into arguments with my dad and Disrespect him (As he constantly puts it) because he and I are alike and it just makes us butt heads...to the point that when we're talking over each other I end up embarrassing MYSELF or my mother when I explode going "SHUT UP AND LISTEN FOR A MINUTE" to him over the phone!
3: I'm the one who's always the bad guy. who always screws shit up...I wasted about 5 grand at one point in putting me through college one time...but I wasted it because I didn't even try...i basically failed spectacularly there because I couldn't be bothered to give a shit there...I'm always the one who screws up and causes the argument, like if I'm yelling over the lawnmower, which I have IN MY HANDS, running where I can't hear shit......i'm always the one who screws up...always the one who makes shit worse...
4: i piss off my mom when I try asking what she wants me to do outside with her, even though I don't want to because I feel dizzy...and yet when i call back, about how Dad said he'd cut the grass she goes "why don't you do it so he doesn't have to?' and now i've pissed HER off to the point of saying 'just go back inside, just stay in here, forget about it.
this...this is why sometimes I wish I was dead...why i have times where I am taking everything IN me not to take the nearest knife and Jab myself in the neck, much less slit my wrist...i'm honestly in tears right now...because I've been reminded of how much i've failed over the years....i realize none of You people here actually care...even fewer actually read my blogs..so...I guess i'm just writing this for myself...my own sake....
So sorry to hear... I am sorta in the situation as you as well
If my words help any, you're not a failure. I've seen REAL failures where I live, dudes that would rather smoke pot than graduate high school. I've had "friends" that talk shit about me behind their backs, people that I once thought were cool, turned out to be dead beats. But you know what? I pushed through it all. I got my high school diploma and kept my head up. But it wasn't always easy. Matter of fact, when I was younger, I used to be a trouble maker. In my middle school days, I was an ass. I talked back to authority figures, slapped people in the face for no reason, and it got so bad one day I threatened to shoot a kid to his face. That got my ass sent to alternative school for the rest of the year. I finished eighth grade from a crummy, run down school for students that couldn't get their act together. My parents were humiliated.
Long story short: I got medicated, got my shit together, and proved the doubters wrong. Keep working hard! Only through hard work and determination can you yourself be a success! If you mope around with self-pity, nothing good will come of it. You can do it!
Hope this helps. If you ever wanna chat, feel free to PM me. 👍
REDDENED! LET'S SEE YA' GRIT THOSE TEETH!!
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...Have you snapped out of it yet? I give you my word if you ever doubt yourself, I'll come and belt ya' one.
*hugging*
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*Huggin back* Thanks.
4594118 Bro, you know i'm here for you.
It'll be okay
hey dude, I don't know you but when I saw this blog post I felt disheartened. Everyone serves a special purpose in life no matter what they do. I can't say that I'm in your situation because I'm still in my teens, but I have thought about suicide in the past. I would always tell myself that I was a useless piece of shit and that I meant nothing in this life but I had some people help me go through those hard times. Trust me dude youre worth a lot more than you think, so never give up! (even though that's cheesy as all fuck it's the truth.) Anyway, if you need someone to talk to I'm here for you.