Fear

Have you ever been afraid to write something? Like, a story, perhaps? Because I have.

Truly, it's a crippling burden. A fear of trying to even write, because I feel that it's just not good enough. I can tell a story, sure, but I can't even figure out if what I'm writing is good enough, and it turns into a debilitating fear that stops me from writing.

The fear of rejection, knowing that you have failed, is a heavy burden to bear, and I have resolved to try and avoid it at all costs.

It is a repeating cycle of rejecting any concept of skill, a continuous, repetitive monotony that threatens to tear me apart should I even try to test fate's whim. It is a cycle of "It's not good enough," and "your story is not as good as the ones you want to make!" And it hurts.

If I ever slip out of this cycle, this fearful, apprehensive stride by which I take my every walk of life, then I might cultivate my skill. I understand this. It is a predicament that I cannot solve easily.

But I will resolve to change my perspective. I shall not let myself be held back by iron clad cells, locked with keys of gold and silver.

And one of these days, I might just get over my lack of self-faith.

I just need to find the perfect story to write.

EDIT: Speak of the devil; I just finished writing the first draft of what I think will be a great story. Might go for a second pass, or upload now, or finish the second chapter first. Requesting someone to read it over for the sake of quality of the craft due to it being a completely new area that I'm delving into in writing.