Early Farewell · 5:56pm May 30th, 2017
I have some bad news, and I don't know how to put it delicately, so I'll just go ahead and say it like it is.
I will not be on the site for a while. I'm going on a hiatus, and it may turn out to be a permanent one. It's actually quite likely it'll be permanent. I'll be logging out at the end of the week, and do not intend to log back in before July 8th. Chances are this procedure will be repeated then, and my return after that is uncertain. As much as I hate breaking my promises, I can't guarantee I can finish the stories I had planned, either.
I'm sorry. I don't want to do this, but I don't have a choice in the matter. It's not show or episode drama, it's not medical or legal issues or getting kicked out of the house or whatever, it's just circumstances beyond my control that demand leaving. Not reduction, but leaving.
Don't worry about me, I'll be fine. I'll still upload that first chapter thing I promised, on my birthday. But I won't be writing anymore, fanfiction or original, nor will I be making things in Blender, or in any program, for that matter. It's not sustainable anymore. I'm uninstalling Blender, Inkscape, and Synfig. I'll also uninstall Hearthstone, Duelyst, every game I have on this computer. Not sure how I'll handle YouTube.
You guys have been great, and again, I'm sorry to leave like this, but I have no choice. I have to.
Take care, everyone.
Oh goodness. Whatever this is, I hope it goes better than you expect. If not, you'll be dearly missed.
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The feeling's mutual, and then some.
Take care dude. Hopefully you can come back when the time is right for you. Ponies may be the best thing in life, but they aren't the most important.
At least I still have warrior meet to read.
*hugs tightly*
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I don't think the finality of it will sink in for me until Sunday. That's when I'm planning to log out atm.
And yeah, it's not even just the ponies; I'm still not up to speed with the show. It's the writing. It's telling stories and seeing people react. I hope I can manage to hit the button when I have to. I'm already trying not to get too emotional on my keyboard. Whole Steam library is removed already, just leaves the art programs and the Blizzard stuff, along with Duelyst.
I hate having to do this, let the record show that. This is not what I want to do.
This is why I tend to fade in and out so often. While I'm not sure if this is family related, writing related on how people react or some sort of self-doubting that says you need to focus 100% on somethingpractical to fallback on to support your passions.
One thing I do know is you're certainly a creative and talented story teller. While not every story will be for everyone, and honestly the fandom tends to dwindle and barely recovers after a hiatus, I do hope whatever life is throwing at you isn't something you've convinced yourself leads to being unable to continue pursuing your love of learning and mastering 3D art and story writing of any sort.
I can relate with having to cut back almost entirely on things and people you enjoy and love being around, hence my over 1-2 year hiatus/back and forths. But it sounds as if you're relatively safe at least given you still have a home and such. Apologies for not being around much, my life has some complications and all but it really shouldn't lead to practically ignoring my friends.
I do hope you find balance in your life to hold both what you need to succeed and what you wish to do professionally in life. Whatever happens, I do wish you the very best.
These announcements are always heart-wrenching to read, but it's not like you are dying. You will continue to be there, just out of reach.
I just want to wish you luck. I've had my share of life-altering decisions. Making the decision is usually the hard part and then you'll feel that life gets a little bit easier.
Just hang in there
Any way to stay In Touch outside of ponyfic?
I'm sorry. You've been an amazing writer and I've loved your stories. Take care and hope to see you around... you'll be missed.
Well, it's certainly a shame to hear that. uninstalling everything on the computer certainly implies that you'll either no longer be using it, or that you won't be able to use it for anything personal as well. Hope you're at least keeping copies of everything you've written so far and not published, if only in a google drive account. Don't forget about public sources of internet, either.
Hopefully things change, and you'll be able to come back to fimfiction, at the very least periodically. I'll certainly miss you. I hope at the very least you end up being able to get inkscape and blender back on there, too, since those are skills that could actually help you in finding a job as well as being a hobby...
Best of luck!
--arcum42
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It's not a hardware thing, really. It's, well...
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pretty much this, actually. Not even me that's entirely convinced. But that doesn't matter.
I haven't removed the software yet. Probably doing that on Sunday. Not removing any actual work, because things might change by the time July rolls around.
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There's always my DeviantArt.
*Sends digital hugs* No matter what happens, know you are loved and will be missed. Thank you for the wonderful stories and interesting blog posts.
Bruh.
What's going on?
And also where is that picture? You know the one. God, I don't think I have it saved... but you know the one.
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I'll be posting some clarification later today.
I think I do know the one. I did have it saved, as it turns out.
i.imgur.com/h0fegiZ.jpg
4553731 Apologies again as I've not signed for awhile. Dealing with a moving situation, yet again. I know not what happens in July. Still, I'd hug you know and let you know you're a good and enjoyable person to talk to. Do what's best for yourself but I'd be remiss if I didn't say that I didn't feel anything if regret for abandoning my love of art and creating comic book stories in my youth. I had a talent and I squandered it. Granted I could have kept at it, but I convinced myself to let it go despite protests.
Everyone knows art and writing is subjective. Subject matter and how characters are seen and felt in both forms carry a lot of weight. You know this, I'm sure you do given that Celestia fic and the other story with Apple Bloom.
You take care of yourself. I do hope you manage to find some balance in your life between what you feel you need to do to progress in this harsh unforgiving world and what you brings you joy.