Sorry guys · 6:28am May 15th, 2017
As you guys have seen, I can no longer keep up with the herd. I've had to many life happenings hit me all at once and cant find the time or energy to write, let alone do anything I'd like to do. However, with this last little change, I have given up entirely, and I want to say I'm sorry.
Let me begin with what has been going on with me in real life for almost a year now and you'll understand.
As, I'm sure you guys are aware from previous blog posts prior to August of last year, I stayed in constant pain. Having to deal with arthritis and gout, along with being a fat ass, didn't help my quality of wanting to continue living, even with just having my first born with my wife.
As August rolled around, I had been without a job for months and had been running out of things to sell in order to make enough money to pay bills. But, as luck would have it, I found a job at Advance Auto Parts in my home town. Which meant only a 5 mile trip to and from work. So a tank of gas would last me all month in my little truck for just going to work and back home. Great right!
Well, lets continue.
I had been in so much pain that I was literally dying. No, I'm serious. I was dying due to stress, anxiety, pain and suffering, etc. I could barely move, let alone get my fat ass up and walk around for ten minutes without crying in pain.
So I had a thought. If I could get a physically demanding job, it would either kill me, or make me stronger. And considering how much pain I was in, I knew I was going to die.
I started working and the first day was horrible. I came home and cried in pain for over an hour as I set myself into the tub and bathed in some comforting sea salts to ease my muscles and swollen body.
The next few days were much the same. I would go into work, beg for death at every turn and movement I made, then just when I felt like my heart was going to stop, my shift ended, and I went home to do it again.
This has lasted to this very date and time. I have since lost 30 pounds of fat, and gained it in muscle. I am honestly very proud of myself for having gone this far, and would love to continue....
Until the swelling began....
My feet, have been, over the last couple of weeks, been swelling. Not just regular, work on my feet all day, swelling. This wasn't normal. So I went to a podiatrist, and honestly, a damn good one at that.
I've noticed that my big toe on my left foot has been getting red and ever so often puss would come out. I left it up to it being an ingrown toenail, since I've had them before and it wasn't a big problem. Unfortunately for me it was worse, and it spread to both of my feet.
After some blood work and tests, I found out that I have staph in both feet. Along with the arthritis, and gout, this gives me a very small chance to be able to....... keep my feet.
Now, keep in mind, I'm not a diabetic. Far from it actually. I'm very healthy, but I just remain in constant pain.
So now, I have an option. I can keep my feet, but I have to become disabled with about a 10% success rate at getting the disability within a month. Or, continue working to pay bills and try to get disability but only have a smaller chance to get it because I am currently employed.
What makes matters even worse.... I just moved into a new apartment that is bigger than my old one. Which will require me to pay for rent before the 5th each month or they kick us out.
So my choices are this.
Continue working with less than 5% chance to get on disability, only to lose my feet and then will be guaranteed it. Only to have an 85% chance to die due to the staph being spread through my body when they have to cut my feet off.
Stop working so I can up my chances to get disability, only to have the chance of being evicted from my new home, and remain homeless until such time as a government aid program can allocate us to an adequate dwelling.
So what do you guys think? Die trying, or give in and be homeless. The only other option is for a miracle to happen and I can have some friends, family, bronies, and or pegasisters donate a few bucks my way to help me out. But I honestly hate asking people to do something like that. I want to work for a living, I want to be able to make my son proud of me and to help society, not hinder it by taking tax dollars from the good and honest hard working individuals out there by becoming a cripple.
*Sigh*
If you guys don't care to help out in one way or another, I would appreciate it. I hate asking, but I'm going to break down and do it. Not for myself, but for my family. My son deserves better than this. So, If you guys wouldn't mind. Please post a link to this blog post in your own blogs to see if some nice souls out there can help me out. I can take some donations through paypal if anyone can spare a few bits. Just send donations to FurStreak@gmail.com
Thank you guys for your time and ear in listening to my life of pain. Let's hope I don't croak anytime soon.
Contact Myler Disability they will help with getting you disability.And they charge the lowest amount if and or when you win.
Via paypal?
Really hope people that know how to deal with you and your countries stuff can help. Ive had big toe infections before due to nail surgery, but so far managed to bleed and clear it, but yours sounds more antibiotic level of stuff.
Hope for the best. Dont stress about us, youve already done plenty.
I'm so sorry you have to deal with this. My own mother suffered constant pain due to a number of things but mainly her messed up back because of a quack "doctor". Sadly she's gone now. But she fought tooth and nail for so long and i couldn't be prouder of her for dealing with all my family's bs, even if her mind started to deteriorate from her medication towards the end of it. All i can say bro is don't take this lying down, if your going down anyways then why now go out sucker punching life on the way down huh?
I shall pray to the Almighty, Lord Shaggy. May He keep you in his favor.