Doppelgangers · 1:02am May 7th, 2017
Changelings. Nestenes. Dubians. Even (to an extent) our own future selves. What do they all have in common? Answer: They're all doppelgangers. Now, the Webster's Dictionary defines "doppelganger" as this: "a ghostly counterpart of a living person"
...but my own personal "internal" dictionary defines it as this: "any being that takes the physical form of another, but has different personality traits"
And that's just what we all are: We take the physical forms of our past selves, but our personalities aren't what they used to be. Take me for example: I used to be so shy that I was afraid to make friends for the first 16 years of my life. Sure, I still tried, but not even a third as hard as I've been trying in the past... almost 4 years. What changed a few years ago that made me want to try harder? A crush. Katie was beautiful, smart, and kind... in short, the perfect girl... but she didn't feel the same way. It took me over 3 and a half years to tell her that I loved her... and then she denied me... she didn't even want to be my friend. Now, after so long, I've finally met someone who helped me realize that Katie wasn't the one... even if she had a similar name.
Stay with me here, as I'm saving and reposting this blog every few seconds...
Kat, I love you. And not just because you love my writing, or because you love me... it's because you're kind, sweet, and smart... the very same traits I saw in Katie... except that you have something she doesn't: An understanding of my feelings for you... from as soon as I met you, rather than having me wait years to tell you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I know you're not going to accept a proposal until you're ready. So I'd be more than happy to wait for you to be ready... even if it means that you propose to me instead... which you probably won't because you're a little old fashioned. That's one of the many things I love about you... you're not like those modern girls who say they're in love with someone else just to make their boyfriend jealous... I may have done that to Rachel but I've changed... and I hope that I you can let me be my new self with you... my doppelganger loves you exactly as much as I do... because we're the same person, she and I. My doppelganger, or course, is my OC, Meteora.
I'm sorry if you don't want me to call you by your real name, but I just can't call you Shy anymore. You're not exactly the kinda girl who's afraid to be in love... nervous, maybe... but not afraid. You're like me: Smart, charming, and kind to all of your friends... and the ones you love most know that you love them. When I say I see myself in you, I mean that you're my reflection, not a doppelganger. You're not exactly like me, but the differences are few and slight. I love you more than life itself... and if there's one other person I love that way, it's myself. We are the two people I love most, and I mean every word of that. So, since I can't propose until you're ready... I'll be waiting until we meet in person. Incidentally, what's your birthstone? Why'd I ask? No reason, just thought I'd like to know. Another thing I'd like to know is a question I already asked you three times, and I'll keep waiting for the day you actually answer it.
