A big thanks to every member. You guys are awesome.
This Last Month · 4:47am May 1st, 2017
Hey. Mellow Mirth here, coming at ya' with another blog.
I have never spoke on it in any previous blog, but Its funny that I call myself Mellow Mirth, I struggle, and always have struggled with depression. I bring it up now because its the main reason that I'm just now coming back from an almost month long hiatus.
I'm just going to be blunt here. April has been kicking my ass. It started around the 8th. I had been a bit distant towards Solstice with all the new and changing things going on in my life. I recently left a traveling job to make a life in CO. I have had mixed feelings about it and myself since quitting. I have never had another life besides one on the road... There is a bridge that spans a river not far from my place. I go and sit on its edge to play harmonica when I'm feeling down. After a week of distance between Solstice and I, (Still in a good relationship, but not as happy as before.) she must have followed me to the bridge. (I walk there. I like to be alone at the bridge. Its just a thing, Ya' know?) I was just playing away when she sat beside me. It was an interesting conversation about how we feel about each other, how things have gone so far, and how we feel about ourselves as people.
What sticks out in my mind is when she told me: "How are you going to love me, if you cant love yourself?"
I didn't say much to that. Just nodded. I know that its nothing she can help me with, I have to handle this one myself. Since then, I have been trying to get my head on straight.
I feel awful for leaving The Shipshelf to rot, but I just had no motivation. Alas, Fear not, for my recovery efforts have been working slowly. I shall be around to stay. A big thanks to everyone for being patient, it means the world to me that The Shipshelf has lost no members. In fact, its gained some. I was surprised. You guys are awesome.
Last but not least, give this song a peek: Father John Misty - Bored In The USA . It helps to explain how I have been feeling more then this blog ever could.
Ill stop rambling at you so you can go read some ponies. Thanks for your time. Ship on! ~Mirth
Edit: I got the videos in the other blogs to work. Go check it out.
Sorry to hear it's been rough for you. It's understandable, given the total shift in lifestyle. I hope Solstice understands this as well; by all accounts, you two are great for each other. It may take some time to settle into your new situation, but it'll happen. And no need to worry about your distance in the meanwhile. Anyone who doesn't understand that sometimes things offline need to take precedence isn't worth your time