Biggest Fear is Reality || What Now? · 1:10pm Apr 3rd, 2017
It happened.
The test results have finally come back and my father indeed has a malignant tumor in his lung. It has been stated that he will have to go through surgery or chemo and radiation therapy, which he will be going through starting this week. Today he begins both with a vicious cycle to try and get rid of this. The upside? He doesn't seem to be as affected, or he just doesn't understand the severity of the situation. The downside? I am having a hard time breathing and not crying.
I'm scared. Petrified.
I almost lost my dad once before and even after he disappeared for two years... I still loved him. He's my dad, ya' know? At this point, I'm trying to figure out just what I have to do in order to help my mother get through all of this. Should I quit school and move back in? Should I drop a few classes and just try again next semester? Should I keep going and finish the semester first? So many things to think about.
I have decided to post Chapter Ten (Or what I had of it) up of Echoing Silence and I will probably post Chapter 2 of Elements before the Hiatus begins. I don't know how long I'll be MIA for, but this seems like the best solution for my online writings for now. I wish I didn't have to. There was so much I wanted to do with Echoing Silence, but life has become the biggest *ahem* fuckyou recently and with my stress levels so high, I have to focus on breathing some days instead of writing.
I'm sorry. I know a lot of you were waiting with baited breath for the next chapter, and I feel cheap giving you just a part of what I had originally planned for Chapter Ten, but I also feel like you've waited long enough. Hopefully, you guys will enjoy it and I'll be able to use writing as therapeutic again soon. Who knows.
I want to thank everyone who has stuck by me with all the crap happening. I hope you guys can forgive the hiatus. I want to make it clear:
This is NOT an abandonment of Echoing Silence or Elements!
This is a hiatus and I WILL return to finish Diadem's story. I will come back. I promise!
I thank you all for your support during this difficult time. Please enjoy Chapter Ten of Echoing Silence.
I'm sorry for what you've been through. Please, take as much time as you need and remember to always be strong, like Diadem.
If I’m reading what you wrote correctly then you’re saying that it’s either surgery and chemo OR chemo on its own? Recommend he get the surgery and chemo. Chemo on its own is only guaranteed to take out the smallest of tumours and surgery + chemo can be less taxing than extended chemo. Managing to get the thing in one fell swoop is his best bet. Being forever short of breath compared to his prior lung capacity is infinitely preferable to risking his odds of long term survival.
It’s a tough choice. Any option risks wasting time and money. Staying the course and proving incapable of coping means losing money on an education you cannot get refunded and losing valuable time with your family. Deciding to take the safe bet and temporarily abandoning your education will waste money no matter what, and could very well prove to be a waste of time; your dad could well recover quickly and without much fuss, or if things are drawn out but stable your mother might not need any help whatsoever… or things could deteriorate, rapidly.
Sorry for you and your family and please take as much time as you need
your life and personal issues are more important than the story, and i wish your dad well, and i appreciate the update on the story and your commitment to keep it going.
No worries, buddy. Do what you got do. I completely understand and I hope things will be alright.
That sucks. Your life always comes first and you should plan accordingly. I can't really say what I would do in your place but I do hope your father will recover. I will pray for you.
I hope things will be alright for both you and your dad.
I am sorry to hear about what has happened to your father. Don't let this story be your priotity at this point and until your father is feeling better, spend as much time with him as possible to help be there for him in support. If the moment feels for it though, let out any emotions you can when you feel ready to do so. As for your semesters, well I am not able to decide your future for you, but you have the call to make on your own. Just know that you have bigger things to consider than a story you can always return to.
Sorry if that didn't help any, but know at least that you have support out there as well as close to you.
I'm sorry about your father, take as much time as you need. Family always comes first.
Very sorry to hear this. I wish you and your father the best of luck.
Thank you for this tenth chapter, it was very generous of you to still think about us during those dire times of yours. Now take care of yourself and your family, we will wait until you're good to come back.
As for your dilemma about school, I can only advise you to talk with your mother, your father (if possible) and your school faculty to help you in your choice and or come up with an arrangement.
Sorry to hear this. My next younger sis (the one who's closest to me in age) underwent treatment for Multiple Myloma (sp?) two years ago, so I know what your dad, as well as your family, is, and will be, going through.
Terry is now, by God's dear Grace, in full remission (there IS currently no real cure for this thing), and I will keep your dad in my prayers that everything works out as well for him.
As to your stories, they can wait. This is MUCH more important, and we WILL be here when you get back.
You just worry about what's going on with your dad, okay?
Much love to you and yours, and God Bless.
You don't know me, but I just want to say that I've been through a similar thing, and you have my sympathy. Nothing really can prepare you for something like this. But you must be strong, because there really is no other choice.
You have my support. Take all the time you need.
Take all the time you need. You have our support no matter what.
I hope that this advice can help.
Don't just worry and fuss over him. Spend time together. Watch a movie together, go fishing, play board games. Whatever his health permits and you both enjoy. Invite some of the rest of the family to join in too. Give him something to look forward to after his treatments. It will make him happier and could give him the strength to pull through. As for your mother, you don't have to go to the ends of the earth, just offer an hear for her worries and offer to do some small things for her when you can.
There is no great measure that can be taken to make it better. But only a lot of little things can help you pull together as best you can. I wish I could do more and hope that your father recovers as quickly as he can.
i wish you and your family the best of luck i know what its like to lose a parent due to health problems
I'm sorry to hear all of that is happening to you and your family. I pray everything gets better for you all. Take all the time you need to help those closest to you. Have a hug from me. (HUG)
Please don't feel pressured to come back to your masterpieces on this website! Afterall, it took Leondardo Da Vinci 12 years to paint the Mona Lisa. So what I'm saying is, focus on family. Life can be really harsh, but we have to give ourselves to the ones we hold close and love, do what you feel is right in this situation and you can't go wrong, even if it means giving up or prioritizing your education in unwelcome ways, because we know how great you are just from reading anyone one of your stories. Plus Leonardo was seen as a genius and he was barely educated.
I really hope you have a much smoother life after everything your going to go through with your family.
Take all the luck you need, a supporting kir'in if you ever need one.
Family first, fimfiction later. You do what you have to, we'll be here. Good luck!
I hope thing get better for you, but of luck and best wishes.
Stay strong, have hope for the best, and be there for each other as much as you can. Cancer is nasty, but it can be beaten! Take whatever time you need, and my best wishes to you and yours!
Don't worry, we will understand that you want to take time off from writing for a while to be there for your dad, because at the end of the day, family should be at the top of the priority list on what to care for and we can easily wait for the next chapter for both Echoing Silence and Elements.
i lost my grandmother to cancer i know what its like
so
you do you and keep yourself level and lean on family
a burden shared is a burden halfed
Real life comes first. Take care of what you need to and come back to Echoing Silence when you can.
I have been enjoying this story for a long time but I think we all can understand you taking care of life first and encourage that!
Oh.
Shit
Well...good luck. Let us keep our fingers crossed.
i hope your father is doing better. and i wish you good luck with starting the writing again when you have the chance.
i'm sorry for what you've been through I was just a kid when cancer took my grandpa
Take all the time you need. I am sure everybody here understands what you must be going through, and I will be praying that you get through these hard times all right.