Hey, guys.

I'm writing all of my letters a couple of days in advance, so I don't waste my time later. I don't even care about making it look like an accident anymore. If it weren't for tomorrow's dance performance, I'd do it tonight. It's going to be really cold in a few days. I'll have a bit to drink, and sit outside. Kind of a win win situation. The pain will either end that night or it will be the push needed for me to get the help I need. In case the former happens, I have letters for everyone I care about. If it's the latter, I'll burn those letters. There's a chance I'll come out suffering even more than I did in the beginning. My dad has already reacted badly to my angst. He might ground me if I survive. Thank you to the people who read my shit and support me. I love you guys.