Personal Fuel

Time for a blog that is unrelated to anything, simply because I don't feel like writing in my journal at the moment.

"What's up, Leo? How ya been?"
Oh, you know, getting by. Things these days are much better than they were a year ago. I'm no longer constantly stressed or worried about changes in my job, even though that's because my current job is pretty low-demand compared to last year. Still, there's more to me now than just the 'work, home' cycle. I'm actually...happier? I don't know if I would say happy just yet, but I'm not fighting off depression every other day now. Heh, just goes to show how many of my previous relationships were toxic.

"What's the good news for ya?"
I gotta say, I'm feeling a natural pull toward editing work. I wrote a while ago about how I was approached by a couple people in order to help with their needs, and I think it was those requests that opened a door for me. Now I'm actually studying character archetypes for fun. Fun! I've found a couple things that I genuinely enjoy and that I don't struggle with every time I try them. I mean, the new archetype series I'm writing (coming eventually) is as much a college project as anything else, and yet I'm going into it with a sense of eagerness. So if this is the kind of stuff I can do for fun...well, there's bound to be a degree and a career for it somewhere in the world.

"What else is goin' on?"
Mm, well... One of my old friends from World of Warcraft contacted me about a month ago and asked that I accompany her to a ball. It was sudden and unexpected, but I was willing to give it a shot. However, between then and now, we were supposed to meet up and actually talk to each other. Sadly, she didn't arrive when we agreed to meet.

It's odd. I got stood up, but it was at a local mall, and I went there with the intent of getting a few answers from her. So I'm not really mad about it. It's a shame that she didn't arrive, and more so that she hasn't yet responded to my text or calls. It's pretty much guaranteed that I will not be accompanying her, but it's not against her in any way. It's more of who I am as a person: I'm not one to crash a party, force myself into interactions, or harass another person over a single broken promise. More to the point, though... When she asked me to join her at the ball, she was doing so in a way that raised a lot of concerns. The "she's already in a relationship" kind of concerns. Naturally, I'm not interested in being "the other guy," but that's why I wanted to get answers from her in the first place.

Ah well. Truth be told, I kind of prefer to spend Valentine's alone. I don't recall having a relationship around the same time, so I've never been caught in the hype or seen the appeal. It's just another day to me now.

"When can we see you again?"
Oh, I haven't left. I've actually been keeping myself busy with editing help, making and re-making videos, and finishing off a bunch of other projects that I left alone for a long time. Many of these were music-based, and some of the ones in the last two weeks have been in real life (babysitting a three-year-old!). Still, I've been going over my current writing projects and adding in a little bit whenever I could. Today is an even better chance: I've got the synopsis for Fullmetal Pony in the next window, and I'll be moving forward in my planning of it as soon as I'm done here. Which is right about now, in fact.

I mean, I'm always around. Whether I'm wrapping up video projects, wearing down a child's energy, or applying for new jobs, I've always got a moment to check in on this site. It's funny...I've been starting to view this site the same way I viewed punk-o-matic.net. That is, before I left it. Well, in regards to that thought, I hope this site doesn't become what that site is now.

I think that'll do for the time being. I feel like getting creative again, and there's a synopsis patiently waiting for me. Thanks for sticking around, anyone.

~Leo