Well SHIT!!! BUCK!!! and above all BAH HUMBUG!!

So to describe the last two or so month's i learned one of our dogs has a tumor and is dying, i failed my College courses, and i just spent the last two weeks having a massive anxiety attack combined with a cold while my grandmother was visiting........... WORST HOLIDAY SEASON EVER!!!

Luckily now it's the new year however and in the spirit of the new year i am trying to keep my head held high and look to the future with hope (or go crazy in order to convinces myself it will all get better despite hoping for things to get better for the last five fucking years only to get my hopes crushed like a ton of bricks).

My dad has told me that failing College is nothing to be ashamed of as it just means i haven't found what i'm suppose to do with life (in this case it was Animation and Drawing) and i should instead focus on figuring out what i should be doing. The only two things i really thoroughly enjoy are Drawing and Writing. So since Drawing doesn't seem to be working i guess i should refocus my entire effort on learning to write. Problem is finding a way to actually make money off writing. The obvious one is write a book and sell it, but that's INSANELY difficult to do and make at least a some what decent living (unlike freelance drawing which you can just earn commissions online and such). Another way would be to write for Animation which is an easier way to make money, but i sadly live in this boring ass place called Texas and i would have to find a way to move to California to pursue such a career.

Maybe i should just continue writing stories about ponies making out or stuffing Spike in a box and mailing him to Saddle Arabia via Derpy Mail and see where things go from there.......... Also invest in a external keyboard for my laptop as typing on my laptops built in keyboard is ridiculous hard..... Or go back to using my Alphasmart now that i've finally found it again.