[Important]: So you know, updates · 7:14am Dec 22nd, 2016
For those that are new (and those that have forgotten), I just wanted to let you know.
I read every comment I receive and I appreciate each one immensely. However, because of my sometimes severe depression, I don't have the energy/confidence to reply to every comment. I try to always leave a like to let you know I have seen it. On rare occasions I will reply, particularly if you ask a question. However, that's sadly not typical, especially if your comment is critical/negative as reading/replying to negative comments tends to seriously aggravate my depression to the point where I will be in a slump for days because of a few words. It is why I left for months before this, so please, please think before you comment and I might actually have to delete negative comments (I'm not trying to be petty I swear). It really does affect how I view myself. I have very low self-esteem which is another reason I hid for so long. I am working on it, but it is very much a work in progress.
In addition, my depression makes me VERY slow to do reviews, artwork, replies, PM's, and the like. If I don't respond or get back to you right away with obligations, understand it's because I take longer than an average person will. For some stupid reason, my brain seems to run on sloth mode 90% of the time. If I haven't gotten back to you in say, a month, then start messaging/reminding me. That's generally around when I forget stuff.
On a side-note, I took off the latest chapter of By Way of Sorrow. A: because there was that issue with the bold text (I have no feakin' clue what happened there, Q_Q) and B: because I had a lot of negative feedback that brought up great points and I need to fix the issues because you guys/gals deserve a quality product. I have spoken to Lord Despair about it, though I will likely do the editing myself as he has major projects of his own to tackle.
Another note, yes, I plan on working on more Slow Fade. I'm so grateful for everyone who offered to pre-read. I have MOST of the stuff planned out though the immediate bit is giving me fits. At this point though, I'm going to need a "nanny" to help. How that works is that you hover on the doc while I write up the chapter and message me with encouragement/ideas as I go. It's weird, but that's how I get shit done these days.
Yet another note, I am completely re-writing TCARW. Even changing the name, though the series name will remain the same. Don't worry, the original will stay up, you will still be able to read it and enjoy it. However, I plan on making the rewrite the "official" version. I need a lot of opinions on it. Tis extremely important. Especially with the first chapter's flow (I know something is off and it's ticking me off). If interested, PM me and I will send you the prologue and chapter one (what I have written of it).
Biggest changes to the series will be that the bet is no longer a plot element (Discord takes the form for other reasons), it will be focused more on relationship building between Twi, Discord, and Spike ('cause he's part of the family), we will delve more into my lore, it will be stand-alone, it will be a stronger AU, and Tia will hopefully be more in-character.
Other notes: I have stories that are still up for adoption. PM me if you see an incomplete/canceled that strikes your fancy. I am still looking for someone to help me with my mature Danny Phantom novel I am writing for my sister, PM me if interested.
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Personal updates I'm assuming no one actually reads . . .
I am still looking for a new job.
I get to take my cat home from my parents' thanks to the landlady finally saying yes. Hopefully that will help with my crippling loneliness. I am glad to have Vash the Stampede. The little booger.
My depression has been astronomical as of late. Got referred to a psychiatrist up where I'm at now, just need to call (hope I have the courage to, I hate phone conversations). Goals are to help me with my autism, help with work accommodations when I get a new job, help me function in social situations, and prevent panic attacks in stores (they've been bad). Also want to look into getting approved for an Emotional Service Dog. Anyone have any experience with those? Sadly, I don't think I will be allowed to have a dog at my apartment, so I guess that wouldn't go too far though. I don't want to make my landlady say yes b/c of legal reasons either. She's too nice. [sigh]
My horse seems to think she is a spring chicken even though she's an old lady. Guess that's a yay. More like "Jesus take the wheel" when I ride her.
I am trying to start a cafepress store to sell art designs on products. Dad's helping me. O___O I fear for the people tortured by my "art."
I really freakin' wish I could find another good audio book. Anyone know of some? I am looking for those that involve sailing (steam punk air travel or actual sailing), pirates, adventures, captains, ships, battles, and romance. I love to read stories about sexy captains/great leaders and their adventures. [le drool]
Selling art. If you need OC's drawn up, I can make it happen cheap. I take deviantart points primarily. I charge like maybe 50-100 points which translates to like $1-3. I think they're affordable, lols. Working on expressions, so maybe it'll be decent! Weeee.
Staying at my parents' house for Christmas. Gonna be busy, but I'll try to get some stuffs done. Goal atm is to fix BWoS for you folks. If I'm lucky, I'll work on art I owe peeps. So. Much. Art. And for some reason, I haven't been able to draw anything decent for a while. Lovely time to have art block said no one ever.
Anywho, you keep hanging in there! [insert kitty motivational poster] If you're feeling down and need to talk it out with some random internet stranger, PM me. I have a skype address I can give you.
Thanks for watching me and reading this (I doubt most of you actually read this, but I can hope),
— Blue
Glad to have you back.
Sorry things are rough.
Hope they get better.
I'm here if you ever want to talk.
Take care and God bless!
-Ru
I hope you start feeling a little better, and if not, that you get lots of cuddles with your cat.
Don't be too hard on yourself, and I hope the psychiatrist helps!
Umm... I can't really help with audio books. I tend to tune out over long periods and I'm pretty bad at remembering stuff people say to me.
Christmas is a time for family so don't worry if you don't get much done.
And don't become that crazy old cat lady.
Don't worry blue grass!!!
I'm sure whatever you do with this story will be awesome, and you have my support!!!!
If you need anything, don't be afraid to ask! I hope everything goes well for you.