Can I be honest? · 8:12pm Oct 20th, 2016
Last year I started writing the story 'Maid to Serve', which is an unofficial sequel to 'Maid to Please' where Shining armor is turned into a maid and after a series of unfortunate events, has to live as a maid under a spell. Now, when I read the original story, I had this moment where I felt instantly depressed for Shining and it made me feel like there had to be closure for him, where he can reclaim everything he's lost. I wanted a happy ending for him.
When I wrote the first chapter, it felt great! Making a story for the first time made me feel wonderful and excited at the prospect of writing more and more and when I was getting fairly good ratings, that boosted my need to write. So when I started writing the second chapter and trying to capturing the scene to my expectations, that's when I hit a bit of a snag - I couldn't piece together how I wanted the scene to go.
So there I am, sitting in front of my monitor with this drive to write and I couldn't figure out how to write it down. Idk what to call it, but by the time I went to bed I hadn't written that much. The next day I told myself to just keep going and see where I go from there, so I wrote a little more and had 4,000 words written down and that's where my mind kept taking me back and start editing mid writing - which is fucking stupid of me to begin with, but I have ADHD so I can't really control myself.
That's when life around me started to get serious again and I had to stop, I needed to finish a few things before going back to writing. When I got back to the story, the drive I had when I started writing was draining away and for each word I placed down my need to write slipped ever so slowly, until it was gone. And so I'm left feeling completely unsure of myself as to what I should do and just left it at that for the time, hoping it would come back to me.
I've been trying to write more of whatever came to mind over the year, but so far it just doesn't seem to be going in the right direction. Now I'm left completely fucking stumped and everything I've tried hasn't worked out.
I'm lost, I have been lost for months and I don't know what to do. I want to finish this damn chapter and post it for you guys, but with nearly a whole year since posting I feel like this chapter will be a disappointment, because it seems to be just so plain and boring.
I think at this point I'm just going to have to put it aside for the moment and start thinking about what other stories I want to write. I have had a few inspirations and I would like to start writing them.
My question to you guys is; Would you mind waiting just a little longer while I try something else?
I want to move on for a bit and start up other projects and stories. I want to write some of these fantasies of mine down while I'm inspired, and wasting it all on a story I can't finish is just going to stress me the fuck out.
I know I told you guys i would finish it, but right now isn't the best time. Perhaps when I get these stories rolling I can come back and fix it up.
So let me take the moment to say sorry for not keeping you updated, I just needed some time to myself.
Do what you must, am sure we'll wait.
Do what you feel you must, I don't want this story to become a chore for you, So I can certainly afford to wait on my end. I wish you the best of luck.
Writing is supposed to be fun. So if it's not,just do what you gotta do.
Part of me was really afraid my story might have discouraged you somehow. I think it was just me being paranoid.
As others said, writing needs to be fun. If you aren't having fun writing a particular story at the moment, switch to another one and see what happens. You're doing this as a hobby. Not a job. :P Just relax and do what you need to do.
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I could have sworn I wrote a reply to your comment before, I guess all this stress is making me forget things. But yeah man don't feel bad about it, you and I just happened to have the same idea at the same time with a different path to take. You built your railroad going through the mountain, while I built mine going up and around. One may be smooth and comfortable, while the other is bumpy and unsettling, but they were both built to reach the same destination - only one of them is slower than the other and far less likely to make it to the station on time(Get it? Cause I'm slow?)
I never felt discouraged when you posted your version. In fact, I actually enjoyed it and learned a few things from it that could be useful, which, to be honest, have given me several ideas here and there that will really make it pop out. Thank you for understanding my situation, btw, it can be very stressful to work two jobs at once, especially when you have ADHD and a bit of a problem understanding people.
I've been thinking - maybe someday you and I should do a collab together, who knows what we could come up with when we put our minds together.
Anyways, hope you had a Happy Thanksgiving and I'll talk to you later. Thanks!
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Thanks. Yeah a collab could be interesting, but who knows when I'll get the spark to write again. I haven't done much since march it seems. (Well other then Weeping Willow, which didn't get much in comments. It has Evening Storm in it! :P)
My work just has weird hours that kinda zaps my desire to spend what free time I have on story work. :/