These Feelings... I Can't Stand Them Anymore · 2:58am Aug 26th, 2016
Stop. Before you think "A depressed blog? This guy is usually happy! What gives?". Well, guess what? I'm not depressed. I have a crush and I can't keep my feelings from her anymore. My behavior around her is getting more... weird and I cannot keep up like this. I might get a heart attack from anxiety if I keep up like this.
Remember that French-Canadian girl I told ya'll about? Its her.
I never have had a crush before. I have had girls like me. But all were undesirable in my eyes for reasons such as she was overly aggressive or very young. I'm a 16 year old Irish-Cherokee-Spanish-White American, i'm not dating an 11 year old. It would feel too weird. Anyways, I never had a crush before. I never knew romantic feelings for another. Coupled with the fact I have social problems that were caused by massive bullying at a young age, I really really really am nervous. She is nice though. She is funny, caring, pretty, and, again, nice. She may be the nicest girl I've ever known. I have never ever seen her get angry. So, I've decided, seeing as how I can't keep speeding like this or I will crash, and seeing as how there really is no harm in an attempt, that i'm going to ask her out next time I see her.
We don't have classes this year, but we both are in MCJROTC so we might see each other during PT and Drill and that kind of stuff, and we also might be able to meet after school or before, but neither of that will get in the way. Next time I see her I will go all in. Lay all the cards on the table. I won't fold. More poker jokes. I mean, I wont seek her out. That would be weird. No, instead Ill just bring it up in conversation.
Basically, ill muster whatever courage I probably don't have and try my luck. Worst that will happen is she says no? Right?
Well, wish me luck.. Ill need it.
Good luck dude. I know how you feel. I have a crush on this girl that I really really like. We've gone on two different "dates" (I put that in quotations since my Mom was right there), but I've never actually confessed my feelings to her. I'm planning on doing it the next time I see her... but it's hard since she doesn't go to my school. And whenever I text her, she rarely answers since she doesn't have her phone on her 24/7.
I'm pretty sure she likes me the same way, so that's a plus.
Again, good luck.
I wish you luck my friend. I've never been in a relationship myself, so I can't give you much advice, sorry.
Side note, but wow, you're 16? I have this weird thing where I think all the authors on here are like 20 and already in college. It's nice to know someone my age can write as well as you.
4172830 Thanks.
Yeah, i'm 16. Two or three more years and its off to Navy boot camp. My family has a deep military history, probably stretching all the way to the American Revolution or even The Seven Years War. Anyways, I don't think i'm that great of a writer. I just do it as a hobby, just like how I collect Coke caps and baseball cards and seashells. Eh. But its nice to hear that someone enjoys my work.
4172798 Thanks, mate. I think you already won the hand, laddie. You just gotta ante up and ask her. More poker jokes. I would be sure the girl i'm talking about likes me too, had I not known she was friendly and touchy-feely with everyone. I should be kinda jealous with that part but i'm not. No reason to be jealous if you are not with her. In fact you should never be jealous. I find that jealousy isn't a feeling in its own self, but rather a state of anger. Maybe you should be remember that in case you don't win the pot.
4173411 Hm... interesting thought, thanks.
4173568 I mean, i'm not stating that it isn't an emotion. Because it is. I'm just saying, in my experience, I think it ties in with anger. Often times when I feel jealous I also feel a surge of anger and that is why I always try to block jealousy out of my mind. I see the two emotions related.
The point is, block jealousy out.
4174688 Well, yeah. I think that's the case as well.
I wish you good luck as well.
Ne perd pas courage l'ami !