Writing Update and a Majorish Life Update · 6:21am Aug 16th, 2016
Heya, everyone. Stahl here. First and foremost, I'd like to get the update on my writing out there first. Now, I haven't been writing too much during the summer, but I actually do almost have the sequel to "That's Your Downfall" done! I have one scene to rewrite (because my writing is trash I just don't like how it turned out overall) and one scene to write. Overall, I'd say it's about two-thousandish words of stuff to do. Considering that I will have some down time in a few days, I hope to get it done then, and I do hope you all like it. Also, I have a multi-chaptered story coming up soon eventually. It'll take me a bit to actually do it, for I hope to write out about five or so chapters of it before posting so I can keep it on a schedule for updating. Considering I'm not even done with the first chapter (and I have no idea what to do for the cover art), I have a bit to go on it.
Now, as you all have obviously seen, I haven't been active at all this summer. Like, not even in blog posts, and I usually like to do about two a month (if you haven't noticed that). I mean, heck, I haven't even been active on Skype, Steam, or Discord as of late. As I type this I have twenty-four unread Skype notifications. That's a lot for me. Well, a lot for anyone, I'd like to think. Anyway, this is mainly a huge personal reason, and I've wanted to get this off my chest for quite some time now. However, I just never really knew how to put it. If you didn't already know, I am extremely self-conscious about anything I do. Okay, enough getting off-track here. Now, the reason I've been so... out of it(?) is because depression hit me hard this summer. Do I know why? I do a bit. It's mainly to do with my home life, and I won't mention them for obvious, personal reasons. A lot has just happened this summer. Between having an actual job and an overall stressful home life, I wasn't in the best of situations emotionally. Due to this fact, I've actually spent as much time away from home as possible. That, therefore, meant that I've pretty much done nothing but work and hang out with irl friends. To, at least, it seems rude to just get on FimFiction to read, to start editing something, or to even write something while I'm at their house. Therefore, I didn't do much there. And since depression is a huge jerkface, I had no motivation to do anything as well. I mean, heck, I'm still not completely over it as of right now, but the fact that I leave for college in a few days is helping.
Anyway, depression sucks. I'm still not completely over it. I know it may not seem like it in this blog, but I'm still like how I am in the paragraph above this one. I honestly hate to say this, but just a week ago I was thinking about doing... not a good thing if you catch my drift here. I honestly wished I wouldn't wake up the next morning before going to sleep. But, obviously, nothing bad happened, and I do hope that with the whole "moving away to college" thing will improve my mental health greatly.
Again, I'm sorry for being so inactive on here this summer. I know people are relying on me to get editing done, and some (I'd like to think) are waiting on story thingies, and it just feels like I've let you all down this summer. But, hopefully, I think things are going to start changing for better, y'know? Thanks for sticking around to the end of this blog. You all are awesome. Have a poni picture because poni. (I know it's not actually poni, but it's close enough, okie?)
I'm really sorry to hear that you're depressed. Send me a message sometime and we'll talk.
No need to apologize, Stahl. As someone who's suffered through depression, I know what a punch to the gut it can be. I hope you're doing better, dude.