You ever hate your own story? · 10:40pm May 28th, 2016
Fast as lightning, sharp as a sword
You ever write that one story that you thought would be your masterpiece? You slaved over it, making it as deep and poignant and awe-inspiring as you possibly can, know that with all the skill you've gained and all the months of practice you've had, it would be the best thing anyone's ever seen? You think it's become something so groundbreaking that it would be up there with works from shortskirtsandexplosions and Cold in Gardez?
And then you post it, and it turns out to be a failure and a laughingstock?
And then you end up hating that story so much, you wish you'd never written it? You wish you could just wish it away and make it so it never existed? You've come to resent it and despise it just as much as you once admired and revered it for your mistaken perspective of it's potential brilliance? And your inadequacy and impotence laughs at you stridently every time you look at the title alone?
Yeah . . . .
Oh I know how you feel.
Yep. I know that feeling. Best you can do in a case like that is hope for constructive feedback and try to make the next one better.
Writer's occupational hazard.
I sometimes feel that way for my first story Garbage Day. Over a year and I now star to debate rewriting it.
Every time.
Every time...
*Raises hand* I'm guilty of this, there have been a lot of stories that I've written and (on paper) thought they would be good but they went the opposite.
Thankfully however, my writing level with stories has gone up in a couple of years, so it's not so bad.
While I cant really say that I know the feeling, since when I write, I just write for the heck of it, I can somewhat Sympathize cause I know someone who at times can feel like you do.
yeah I made a story a wile, I hate it because people still fav it but I'm to lazy and busy to rewrite it.
Yep, it's an occupational hazard.
I feel ya. There's this one story I made (which is my first) that got so much hate that I have a sequel planned for it but now I don't know what to do with it.
Yes, actually. My 9/11: Equestria story. God, I get all depressed just thinking about it.
Welcome to the club. I think I'm the Junior Deacon or some such.
Despite the fact that my I Killed Fiddy Men story is a King of the Hill (yay! that show is cool), one of the first koth/mlp stories so far, have at least 100 likes compared to my other stories, and helped me understand what to do as a writer for my future stories...
...I'm getting tired of it.
Why the hell did I have human turned pony non-KOTH OCs in a King of the Hill story?
As a fellow Artist/Writer, I would say this, learn from the mistakes/hiccups you made in your story, so next time when you decide to write another story, you can try to make it better. If it ends up the same way, then try again. Keep pushing forward, never be afraid of failure.
I know exactly what you're talking about, my friend. I've felt that way about my first story so much that I've taken it down and am currently rewriting it now that my skills as a writer have greatly improved since then.
It's why I always say "Aim low, get high feel better about yourself" and not "Aim high, get low feel bad about yourself"
My first story. People like it, but I felt I could have plotted it better and soon realized that I can't write action.
I can sympathize. My fanfic "The Stallion and the Mare," I feel, has been subject to this. I thought the title was pretty clever considering the story itself, but it didn't get much traction probably because I based it on a particular Season 2 episode that is hated by everybody. I honestly couldn't think of any other way to write about my OC.
Despite the lack of success with SATM, I will still continue to write stories where my OC's would be introduced into the TV series, and I suggest you do the same. Don't let one bad story dictate how the rest of them will be seen by others or yourself. You write really good stories!
I started to hate everything I write.
Happens to all of us, man. I even unpublished one of my stories from a long while back (you can read it here, if you're curious).
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Heh . . . I'd be lying if I said I saw this coming.
But thanks for the link. If you're really okay with it, I'll take a look sometime.
Memo to self: don't call people by name in a blog post and expect them not to see it.
Isn't this what the several bold boxes labeled with the word "Delete" are for?
Seriously nobody can see it after you do that.
3985497 It doesn't delete from memories.
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If you choose not to think about it it eventually does. Not like it was some near-death experience or something.
3986891 Near-death experience as far as a writing career is concerned. Besides, ignoring the problem doesn't make it go away, and not thinking about it doesn't mean others will do the same.
3986924 Maybe you'll feel better if you another story like the last of the Snapped trilogy or the final Steam Collection.
I can't say the feeling's a total stranger to me.
Yep, finally back to stay
. Don't worry about it. You seem to feel like you have this burden of being cool, of having tons of followers, even writing liquid gold every story. I apologize for being blunt, but the truth is you're not perfect. Then again, neither am I. Neither are 785 other people following you. If that's the case, then such a burden can only hurt a person to carry. The other truth is, your only responsibility is to love yourself, and realize what a good person you are no matter what anybody says.
My advice? First things first, you need a doctor, psychologist, whatever you applied for. I can't remember which, but professional help will do you more than we can. I can tell you that. Secondly, it's no secret a big part of this problem is Fimfiction, combined with the fact that on the internet there's a hater for everything. We won't be offended if you tried taking a break again. Or if you tried something like me - I don't write stories here, I'm just here to help people at times like these. At least separate your self-worth from hinging on the mercy of monsters. And third: don't worry about it. It isn't your job to be perfect, no matter what they say. Nobody, I mean nobody can change the fact that you matter. Because you are amazing.
Never forget that.