It's been a while. · 3:36am Apr 8th, 2016
Hey, guys. It's me, Deyeaz. How're you all doing today?
...
Great, I would hope. I'm doing well myself.
So... why haven't I been writing? I think the obvious answer is... I've sorta lost my drive for it. For three reasons, mainly.
1) I've gotten this feeling of ostracization by the super hardcore popular writers on FIMFiction, since my stories didn't contain the cool, calm, collected, awesome and maybe broken OCs. I've also felt isolated from the MLP:FiM fanbase as a whole: while I like to be more levelheaded, objective, and overall just a regular dude who like technicolour horses, the more active members of the group who waved their freak flag high seemed to hate that. Some of them were Debbie Downers, for lack of a more appropriate term, I always asked for advice on how to improve myself, only to receive the most toxic, vile shit I've heard in my life as "responses." I think the big wakeup call to leave the fanbase was when I posted a Facebook post about how I got a 28 on my SATs about two years ago. One of my "friends" practically shat down my throat with "a 28 is nothing, I got a 31 without breaking a sweat, you should keep your success to yourself so as to not look like an arrogant cunt," and so forth. He was right, so to speak: I should have practised more piety and modesty when it comes to my success. But at the same time, there are better ways about reminding someone to eat their slice of humble pie than to tell them that they're arrogant cunts. With that, I secluded myself from the My Little Pony fanbase, with the idea that "I don't wanna put up with that kind of horse shit." Selfish, innit?
2) I had started college back in August of 2015. It's community college, but I'm a full-time student, looking for a part-time job for extra on-hand cash, since my financial status is about as great as the Greek economy's. I want to get through my undergrad as fast as I can and get my degree in Computer Science, and I'm barely done with my first year, so when I hear about how other students are taking 18 credit hours a semester while working two jobs, I get this sinking feeling in my stomach that I'll take even longer, owe more in student debt, and have even more difficulty getting my degree.
3) You. My lovely, dedicated, loyal audience. I was nervous almost all the time with writing the next chapters for stories like My Little Sly Cooper, or To Protect and Serve, that I had no idea how well-received or not the chapters would be. And here I am, my shit still, more or less, intact. I thought, after a year, I would have lost all of you, and would have to start anew, which is fine, since I have other stories that have been sitting in the backseat of my mind for weeks, almost months. Which is ridiculous considering my current stories are ongoing ("ongoing" being used so loosely in this circumstance.)
It sucks that I never left you guys any warning about my sudden absence from writing in general. I wasn't dead, not by a long shot: just my drive for writing died. So... what should I do?
Why did your drive die again?
I mean it happens to the best of us and usually I take a break for a bit and work on other projects. Or play some video games in a long binge for a week or two. It always comes back for me. Sorry to hear that you've encountered some nasty Bronies in the past. I guess a lot of us can be dicks, but I do try and help others when they ask for advice.
3855938 I really am trying to get back into the swing of things. I don't want to give up 100% because I'm so close to finishing one of my stories. Leaving everything with 2-year long cliffhanger is the last thing I want to do, you know?
So, I'm gonna try and tackle it. As hard as I can.
3855957 I got ya. If you run into dicks on your stories, just thin of the best responses for them. Ones that make them seem like true jerks, while you're calm and collected.
If you wish to continue then by all mean, do continue. Wanting to see things through to the end is at the very least an admirable thing to do and I respect you for that. Don't worry, I and your several followers of your stories will patiently wait. Just remember that in every community there's going to be toxicity (I'm looking at you SC2 global chat) but whatever can do is see what they're saying is constructive or not and move on.