I've Decided On What I'll Be Doing In My Fanfiction Career From Now On. IMPORTANT NOTICE · 12:48am Jan 29th, 2016
Goodbye.
I'm not going to do this anymore here. Going back to the fanfiction account I haven't really used besides throwing in forever.
https://www.fanfiction.net/u/5000498/TheElvenKingOberon94
There it is. That's where I'll be from now on. Writing what I want in whatever genre, fandom, or general seriousness I want. There's not a like bar that tells me if its good or not. And I don't have to be worried how people will take new stories.
That idea has been kicking around my head for the last fifteen or so months. I haven't watched the show in months and the ones I do I skip most of it. I don't read MLP fanfics at all anymore really besides the ones I actually like (which are very few and far in between)
Also the fandom I don't feel a part of anymore. I'm just unhappy with what I'm writing- since I tend to write in what amounts to a visual type anime style and MLP in my personal opinion doesn't work like that. I have all these ideas that I don't write at all because I feel like I have to lose a part of myself to get popularity. And I hate that. Sure I say that I write primarily for myself but there's always going to be a part that feels like I have to bow down to the common ideas of the MLP community.
And I don't work that way. This is a reaction to a lot of factors. Dealing with suicidal thoughts and feelings of uselessness. So I want to change a lot of things. At least I will feel like I want to write something that I love writing. And I feel like I am being smothered with needing to watch the show to understand what's going on in fanfiction or I seem quant. Or canon discredits all my theories. Etc.
I haven't felt right since at least season four with the show. I noticed that I skipped entire episodes or I didn't care about what the writers were doing with the characters. I am sorry. But I will stop watching the show entirely. It isn't like I hadn't done that until the season five premiere (which was terrible) or the season finale (which I liked) but people either like or hate Starlight Glimmer. I don't give a fuck. It's just a character. I think MLP is definitely dying. Season Six I hope will be the end. I wanted Season Five to be the end.
But no. I get to see it extended into a slow grave. And I thought the last good season was season two. Season Three was mostly pointless and season four failed at the long arc. Season Five I didn't even like watching the episodes I did watch.
I will still write MLP stuff. But it won't be here. This time I am completely leaving. Fanfiction.net (even with its terrible interface) is just free enough for me to write anything I want. It has a ton of different genres, has every fandom like ever, splits categories between crossovers and straight show/thing stories, and doesn't have me need to connect everything I do to ponies or Equestria Girls. Things will move to my fanfiction account.
What I want to do is focus on game crossovers, giant robots, or magical girls. Not ponies. I will write a few things of ponies and crossovers that I've done here will continue there but I won't put them here. This is my last blog here. Goodbye.
Goodnight, sweet prince.
Live long and prosper.
Sorry to hear that, but I do hope your new path is a happy one.
Good luck and hope your depression ends!