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volcodom


Just a guy that stumbled into the fandom, and started writing.

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  • 433 weeks
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  • 439 weeks
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  • 447 weeks
    A lover AND a Fighter

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  • 448 weeks
    On Laziness

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Dec
8th
2015

La tristesse durera toujours · 4:09am Dec 8th, 2015

Those were the last words of Vincent van Gogh and in French it means "The sadness will go on forever" so as you might suspect folks this is not a happy post. For you tldr folks this isn't a cancellation announcement, I'm still here and will be as long as I can. So folks I have hit a dark spot in my life, a relationship I've been in for the last three years with a woman whom I love to the point of madness is nearing its dusk, and whether it will rise again is uncertain. In short the woman I love and I are on the outs. This has put me in a deep dark place, especially when I go into that deep trance like state from which my romantic writing comes. To be blunt it's slowed the next chapters to a halt, and I'm now left trying to pick pieces up and get back to it. So I ask you to bear with me during a tough time. And now, indulge me as I take a literary razor and let a wound bleed all over this page (full disclosure this is not an endorsement of self harm merely a device by which I portray my sadness and should you be in a place where self harm is something you're considering please consult a specialist, if you need help finding one my inbox will always be open)

I saw before me the most brilliant star, a beacon of flame which pulsed eternally with warmth. The beauty of the star's light was in her ever changing spectrum, so brilliant, so unapproachable. I found myself in those days of youth always stopping to marvel at it. In the labors of that youth I came to love that sun, then when it first left my sight I found myself embittered by it. Why had that brilliant nova gone? Why could I never truly grasp that glorious glowing brilliance. It took the maturation of my spirit and the refining of my soul and body before one day I saw, in the distant sky, my brilliant star, lighting my world with her color once more. This time my star had come to visit me, she came to be by my side, and despite the brilliance and heat which threatened to burn me, I embraced it. My soul was flooded with that incredible light, and at the center of the star I found the flickering flame, the core of the brilliant nova I'd grown to love. I held that flame in my hands, and came to know it well, my appreciation of that conflagration increased by the nature of that flickering flame. We shared an eternity, dancing within the ephemeral glow of her brilliant soul. I planned to spend my forever embracing my star's flickering core, but as our days wore on I felt the heat I had come to know fade, the radiance of the star fading around me and showing my eyes again the ugly world. In the end of her days I came to know my star, now a dying cinder, was drained by my presence, and so I stand at the precipice of immeasurable height. With a final embrace of that flame I gave all of her I could back, and threw her from me. The flame now hangs in the sky, moving farther away from me. My star is gone now, and while in my waking hours I sometimes feel her far off radiance as I sleep in the ugly darkness of the world I am alone, awaiting the return of my star.

I'd move heaven and Earth for you darlin' Farewell

Comments ( 12 )

Volcodom nuuuuuuuu ;-; Is there anything we can do to help? :c

3601713 Just keep supporting me like you guys do, and send me good vibes, I'm still working to bring you guys the lovey huggy feely Christmas chapter. I just needed to vent all of that

3601722 my dear editor folks, the reason I'm getting through this.

Hang in there bud.:heart:

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Q07 #6 · Dec 8th, 2015 · · ·

Man, I'm sorry. I mean it.

At least you know you can vent your frustrations and sadness around here. This is one time I feel I can speak for the group and say that WE are all here for you. Personally, if you need an ear of any sort, you can use mine. I know how it is.

Take every last moment you need to work things out, whichever way it is. The story can absolutely wait. I don't know you irl, but your a pretty solid online bro, and I appreciate your interaction. Just do whatever you need to do to lift up your spirits.

3602684 thanks buddy, like I said, right now all that support is getting me through. As a famous group once said. "I get by with a little help from my friends."

Hey man, sorry to hear that. i too had a long relationship that didn't last. I do hope the best for you two, and if it's not going to happen, then best of luck picking yourself back up. I know that can hurt something fierce. :pinkiesad2:

I think though that as contrary as it sounds, it's good that it happened so close to the holiday season for certain reasons. You get to enjoy being with other people, and the general get-together of the holidays will help ease any lonely feelings. Plus holiday fanart and us peeps are here for you! :raritywink:

When I had my stuff happen to me, it was mid-college and luckily I had friends to go out and hang with who were able to distract me from things. After a while it just became fact, and not something constantly weighing me down.

I hope you're able to find your peace in the coming days ahead and feel better. Also that last paragraph was real freakin' poetic man. Got me misting up over here :fluttercry:

Until things pick up, feel free to post blogs and expect responses from us! Or go off and do your own soul searching or merrymaking if you can. :twilightsmile:

We love you man no homo okay maybe a little and I for one wish you the best. Take this
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3604349 your words are most appreciated my friend, and as I'm feeling a bit better after spilling my soul and getting such lovely response I want to...

ALLLL THE HOMO! that is all :rainbowlaugh:

You'll find many of us know what that's like, amigo. My last two long relationships ended up in shit. Just this last time the chick I was going to marry got whisked off by the guy I thought of as my brother - fed him, clothed him, housed him, protected him, supported him. Then off he goes with my love of years and all the people closest to me save for two. Out of a large group of nearly eighty. I almost died that day, the sheer rage was putting me right into a heart attack - it still ended up as a stroke, but I was calmed down and comforted by the tears and affection of the woman who is now my wife and has been for three years.

Sometimes the deepest sorrow leads to the happiness we deserved all along, friendo. Don't let yourself fall too far, and always stay true to you.

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3604375 I'm sorry this happened to the both of you mates, and I hope that it has or will get better.

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