Doing Much Better · 4:09am Nov 28th, 2015
Back again! And I am very glad to say that my mental state has improved beyond belief. My counseling is going very well. I have had no suicidal thoughts for months. Homicidal thoughts are still there, but they are much less frequent.
I have fantastic friends who are always there to support me. And I am happy.
But that's not to say I'm not still having problems. I am very depressed (I'm taking serotonin, a dose of 100mg as of now) and very anxious.
This weekend (and as I type) I am in Indiana against my will. My family have come here to see some cousins of ours and celebrate thanksgiving and all that. I did not want to come. And I'm still regretting coming. I've just hung around my mother the whole time.
Also, I have a friend who is anorexic. She is seeing multiple counselors and psychiatrists, but she doesn't trust them. And she gave me a gigantic scare when she tried to kill herself last Monday night. She needs help, but she can't trust people enough to talk about her problems.
I'm scared.
