i HATE sleeping · 5:09pm Nov 20th, 2015
iv had horrific dreams now for like the past 8 moths and i figured if i gave it time it would just stop but idk i guess i was wrong. iv gotten accustomed to the idea of it and its not as bad physically as it youst to be. there is a pattern iv found in it all well not a pattern as much as i no what to expect. it normally is just a night of demons chasing me and just ripping me apart or eating. and thats on a good day. it normally involves torture of some kind and idk it would be different if it was just once a night. but no its every time i close my eyes. and it wakes me up a lot so thats the really crapy part about it. its never the same one agin its always different. i hate sleeping so much. it wouldn't be as bad if it didn't include the people i care about. it will be my family members or kids from my school. and i no its not real but it fills real. i watch them die over and over agin and its putting me in a vary bad state of mind. I'm not going crazy or anything its just that when you have to talk to people and all you can think about is last night i watched your face get torn off. or i watched you get strangled with your own organs. its sick. and its making me sick of getting up in the mornings and seeing life this way. i hate it so much. i mean. i can barely stand to look my own mom or girlfriend for that matter in the face without having to go to the bathroom to take a brake from it all. i just want to no when will it stop. am i supposed to live like this for the rest of my life. i just don't no any more. 
Ask your subconscious to stop remembering your dreams.
And I understand, mine are bizzare every night.
3555842 ill give it a shot anything is better than like a pill perception tbh