#59: Cold season · 4:12am Oct 29th, 2015
It's around,and it bit me pretty good on a week I had asked off. So it was situationally convenient that I didn't have to excuse myself from more than 3 days of work... but I'm also not getting any paid sick time for my "vacation". So boo. :/
Besides that bit of poor karma. I've gone through a job transfer and with that got to choose my permanent schedule I have Monday-Wednesdays off. I'll be starting writing classes nov. 11th., and if that wasn't enough I've gotten a few coworkers interested in my hobbies with carving and herbology. One of my coworkers is a plethora of insight and a real rune-whisperer. Just the type of mentor I've been searching for.
But What's really important out of this is that I don't feel like I'm running through life again. That's sensation almost goes through a routine with me were:I'll feel comfortable>something out of my control will alter my comfort>and I will struggle to keep up and fix it. I'm closing into my comfort zone again,just in time for some new challenges to jog me from that lull for too long, because if I stay comfortable too long I start to wonder if I'm really where I should be. If I've let myself down and better yet let my expectations down.
Which is usually a yes. I let my expectations die. I won't lie about it, I have a low self esteem, and I've been the friendly therapist with only common sense to my friends since I had any. I hold onto grudges and memories and odd little facts like a mcdonald's french fry can out live the carpet it's resting on. My brain is but a machine, and this year its been asking for more time outs than my family and friends have ever seen. They think my health is seriously declining. But my doctor could tell them I'm an average 23 year-old female. My knee pain is common place in females, my feminine issues aren't uncommon. Its just my muscles finally giving into stress,emotions finally fraying too long and me finally listening to good advice. I wanted this to be the last slog(sad blog).
But I'm rather lost in the direction ITCoS should go in, and if I should even continues the nymphverse. Both have received mixed reception and the nymphverse just seems to attract confusion. We'll see...
I was going to make a joke about how its been a long time, but I have noticed a critical flaw with that plan... I'm about five blogs and a story behind.
Sorry 'bout that, I'll catch up on those tomorrow.
Aside from that you said some interesting things:
Your taking writing classes soon, may I ask what kind? Such as poetry or fictional?
Another thing I am sticking my nose are those carving and herbology hobbies. That sounds quite interesting, will you ever consider showing off your work? I hope you and your coworkers have a lot of fun together too.
And lastly before I hit the sack I would like to say that it is nice to hear that life is a little more stable for you now and that you can walk for a bit instead of run. I don't know what that is like but every moment you get to breathe is golden, I hope it lasts and lasts.
I'll give my opinion on nympverse when I get a chance read it.
I'll wrap it up by saying its nice to hear from you again and even nicer that I was paying attention this time.
It's great to see some improvement. I really hope you can find some stability in your life.
3504441 I see I'm not the only one getting lost to the shuffle
, but in all honesty it's a real gem when I see you and RRcopter reply. Not only to see that you're still interested enough to kick around here,but to see you're well enough to type. (which might be a bit of selfishness on my part) Read them when you like, no rush. They're not going anywhere soon.
Writing workshop. It's to help re-jog my writer's block by fixing me structure my stories better,and help me fully convey my thoughts so readers aren't asking for chapter summaries in the comments. This course is themed for short stories no fiction/non-fiction preference, but I would assume it's catered more for fiction writers because there's other non-fiction classes. My gardening and carving are hobbies, yes. Something I pickup in certain seasons. Carving is usually a warm weather craft,until I get the staff all cleaned then i detail and prime when it's finished.(which I never feel anything is finished haha.)
Gardening/herbology started when my mother wanted me to spend time outside,but in the safety of our yard(I was known to walk ALL over the place when I was in the single digits) My next door neighbor also helped in her own way. I'd see her tending her lawn and flower beds with a smile on her face all spring long. Come Mother's Day The lilacs in my yard would all bloom,and her yellow and orange daylilies would be budding. When I woke up The hues of lilac and dayliles reminded me of a sunset. *sheds a few nostalgic tears*
My free quote for you(and RRcopter) today is :
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"Life is slow. Life is fast, and Life is only what you make it."
at some metaphoric level we can appreciate the directness of the quote, we all know I love making edgy symbolism. But take it for what it is. I could choose to quit my job devote my life to writing and carving my staffs, I'd love to witness the alternate universe where I did. It's the emotion that drives my curiosity. I'm ever fearful that my choices are not mine to choose. That my dreams and hobbies must stay dormant, and ever weary of the job market, and what my smiles and joys can offer to others. Not many can claim that their work is in their craft, that's is how hobbies came about to begin with.
3511624 I... forgot to respond.
Sorry.
I would have to say that I feel the same way too. You and TSA are the ones who have kept staying here and I am very much grateful for that. I still get to enjoy this site because of you, I stay because I want to keep in touch with you and your creations.
I hope you enjoy your writing class. I personally think it takes a lot of bravery to write stories for critique. (I'm shy)
I too have enjoyed gardening with my mother, I particularly enjoyed the combinaitons of Roses and Lavender.
Lastly I enjoyed that quote; it speaks to me, and probably everyone...
I glad to see that you have found a balance between hobbies and jobs, I would very much love to just chase my hobbies too.