Well Now... · 9:29pm Oct 20th, 2015
Just get my laptop back after 2 weeks of repairs (static discharge messed it up, thankfully all my important files were backed up), pulled up Fimfic today, and found myself at 800 followers.
I really don't know how this happened. I mean, sure, I like seeing more people read my work, but... I'm not the most prolific writer anymore. I'm tired all the time from work, and usually have little to no energy, will or time to devote to my writing, seeing as I usually spend my time at home unwinding after work. I mean, come on, at this rate, I'll have A Dragon's Journey done by the time I'm 30, and that's still a little over six years away.
I really, really, REALLY want to write just about anything, but it's just... I don't know, maybe I'm just drained in the fact that I've devoted an average of 3 novels to just A Dragon's Journey, and it has yet to reach what I desire to be it's halfway point.
That, and I've recently become almost utterly consumed with Warhammer 40K, partly because it appeals to the historian within me.
In any case... I don't know why I'm this popular, but I do thank you all for reading what I've read. I'd like to continue making more things for you guys to read, I just wish it wasn't so hard sometimes. I'm not depressed or anything, by the way, I'm just... I don't know, kinda burnt out is all. I know I shouldn't, but I do feel an innate urge to figuratively beat myself up over this lack of progress, and while I may not be, it's just so hard to write anything you see as good when you can't even begin to write in the first place, or see a pointless endeavor in everything you write, or just have a hard time not over-thinking what I'm writing down.
Maybe I'm trying too hard and not letting the hate flow through me words just come to me as they used to. I want to make everything good for you guys to read, maybe right off the bat, and it's hard to not think like that. What I write the first time around is usually almost unchanged from what I publish. I should really just write a boatload of stuff and (along with my numerous proofreaders) just edit it from there.
So, thank you all for your support thus far, and while the struggle will always be there, I will not give up writing.
I've said it before and I'll say it again, I think you have talent.
You are good at giving details to something and making sentences flow very naturally. That's a skill that you should be proud of. You have good ideas and they are around. Maybe the fic I read and reviewed wasn't a prime example, but everyone does something that's not very good to being with.
Point is, I would love to see you continue with your writing. I honestly think you can make something of it.