I'm kind of terrible at not being terrible · 3:02am Oct 9th, 2015
Hey guys long time no see. I guess this is a little awkward considering the last time I made one of these I said I'd stop doing this.
I'm kind of awful, I think I touched on that a few times here and there. Hopefully a bit in the last one, if I didn't someone tell me and I'll make a separate post about how terrible a person I am.
I'll be honest, I barely wrote anything in however long it's been since my last post. I did do some writing, almost entirely immediately after that post though.
I want to write, I just lack the follow-through to commit to any one hobby for too long because I panic and worry that I might enjoy something else just as much or more and then instead of managing time efficiently to do multiple hobbies and schoolwork and whatever else I just commit hard to one and pretend I don't visit whatever forum/group/club/place I enjoy the others at anymore. For instance I recently tanked a calculus test and now I'm simultaneously avoiding like three forums and two groups. And then I opened this one to check in. And saw this
Wow. Almost 5k. I'm not even going to look at them till it hits 5k. and then probably only read the stories and blogs anyways.
I say I'm back. But schoolwork (calculus mostly) takes precedence right now. I'm gonna see if I can balance two hobbies (this one and some programming) and schoolwork with a semi-functional social life for a bit.
Also screw chapter 8 of the thirty minute ponies. I rewrote that 5 times since i made that last post. It's terrible every time, I swear it gets worse. I just- don't hold your breath for that because it singlehandedly kills my motivation to write anything.
I wish I was more motivated to keep my own writing up. I still have tons of ideas and one ongoing story nowhere near finished, but I hit a wall when I realized I wasn't happy with what I've already done, and have no real reason to expect what I do next to be any better. That's... wow, that's really depressing when I say it like that.
So let's move on. Yup. I am still editing stuff, including this 10,000 word/fortnight monster that I've been helping with for the past year. I just checked after an hour of straight work on it, and I was only a seventh of the way through the chapter. Whew. Time to rethink things a bit. Maybe don't try tackling the whole thing in one night before an exam day.
What was that diagram? Grades/sleep/social life? Not too much room for hobbies like ours.
Oh yeah, and I was supposed to be doing videos and readings, too. And drawing. And I think I used to practice piano, too. Meh, I'll see something through to fruition, at least.
Here, watch Christopher Walken remind us why we all love him, that always makes me feel better:
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Hooray for being terrible at commitment! And Christopher Walken!