Hiatus, Hiatus · 12:29am Aug 3rd, 2015
Wow, I written quite a few drama-filled blogs posts, haven't I?
Again, I'm moving and again, I'm a real mess right now.
I'm taking some time off fimfiction and working on my fiction elsewhere. To surprise folk with edited and updated fics. This was what I was planning to do anyways, I just got distracted a week ago. Part of my whole AUTHOR AWESOME plan I had going for a while. And then I saw In Her Solar Arms in the featurebox and I couldn't help but think, I must have wrote a terrible Celestia. That's why I don't get featured. Ever.
Because I can't write ponies right. Ever.
Makes sense to me.
Bitching about my writing also makes sense to me. Because I like bitching about my writing. I was seriously debating making a thread in Struggling Authors asking about types of Princess Celestia and how they work in various stories. I'm still thinking about how she was called a bitch in Assuming The Position. If In The Midst of Dreams had made it through, I would have talked about shipping names for Human X Royalty like a doofus. Like Ambrosia for Human X Celestia and Ichor for Human X Luna. Cause I like that kind of stuff.
And then I would have talked about the layers in Assuming the Position and how that little comment has been eating at me for days.
Celestia is a bitch.
And then In The Midst of Dreams, the crux of my plans/promises/ambitions being rejected... It deserved to be rejected. It wasn't pony. It could never be pony. I scaled back on my story so much in the initial planning, scaled back so much and it still wasn't enough. I wanted to have a human that could be interesting and potent and complex... Contrasting relationships and shit. The cuddles I never got to in Silhouette.
I'm not even upset. The wind in my sail has been gone these last couple days. Now goes the boat.
But it's like whatever. Real whatever.
So I'm on hiatus, cause I need to go and cool my head. Whatever...
I put Three Dirty Words in the queue so it should be around today, tomorrow. Who knows, it might get rejected too.
It should be, I scaled back on it too.
Fuck.
If we had been able to talk at length about In the Midst of Dreams, I can guarantee that it would not have been rejected when it was finally submitted. As an editor, I do not joke about these types of things; dead serious, that story would have passed had I the chance to just so much as glance at it for a few minutes and gave my two cents prior to its submission.
But as it stands, I'm sorry to hear about it not passing, it sounds like Dreams in particular meant a lot to you.
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Are you crazy? Party with your bad self, you got featured!
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You have to party hard for everyone else who didn't make it. Use this as your springboard. Write. And keep on writing. There is something that people noticed in your writing and take this as a sign that you can make it work, that you can do it. Yolo, my friend. Just Yolo.