Basically I lost interest in the mlp fandom, moved back in with my parents, moved out again, took lsd, moved back in with my parents (who now treat me a lot better), had an existential crisis and became Schizophrenic. I also found out I'm MtF trans so... Things have been hectic.
First off, I do apologize for the on again off again activity. I've been dealing with the stress of moving out recently, not to mention all the shifts I've been picking up at work. I didn't even have WiFi when I first moved in and I just now got it. Definitely try and finish up a chapter today, I do apologize for the wait.
I finally got a laptop and I'm moving out in a few days so... Writing should move along a lot faster since I don't have to get up early and bike to the library to get any writing done anymore.
I've had a little bit of a harsh work schedule this week (5 graveyard shifts in a row) so it's enabled me unable to get up on time and actually write anything until today. I intend to take full use of my three days off and will try to be up and writing every single morning. I can't keep setting deadlines for myself but I do promise that right now I am working on Equestria + Test and I hope to get
3249682She's such a big part of my life now, and I don't have many other opinions to fall back on. Even when somepony compliments me I talk myself down. I humble myself too much.
3249686 Granted, not many ponies possess your humility. I would say it's better than fixating on how wonderful you are. I advocate an even amount of good and bad in all things, i.e. equality no matter what. If only your stepmare could see you as an equal, a fellow pony instead of a hindrance, perhaps you could grow beyond her pushing you down all the time. If only.
3249696 Well, I get the feeling you do what you can to keep her content, but she never seems to be satisfied with your performance. She's the impossible to impress authority figure; most folks I know have a parent that's impossible to impress, myself included. I understand your difficulty.
(not part of that group)
Do you find yourself attractive?
3249656 No, not at all. I look too much like a mare, and my hair's always a complete mess.
3249657
You consider those downsides?
3249659 A few of many.
3249666
I think you're really cute. Why wouldn't you think that of yourself? I sure would if I was you.
3249669 My stepmare always says I look ridiculous... I always believe her, and then add more to it in my head to make myself feel worse.
3249677
Ridiculous? You look like you, though, don't you? Why would you believe her even for a moment?
3249682 She's such a big part of my life now, and I don't have many other opinions to fall back on. Even when somepony compliments me I talk myself down. I humble myself too much.
3249686
Granted, not many ponies possess your humility. I would say it's better than fixating on how wonderful you are. I advocate an even amount of good and bad in all things, i.e. equality no matter what. If only your stepmare could see you as an equal, a fellow pony instead of a hindrance, perhaps you could grow beyond her pushing you down all the time. If only.
3249691 I've tried to fix our relationship, but even when I do better she keeps bringing up past mistakes.
3249696
Well, I get the feeling you do what you can to keep her content, but she never seems to be satisfied with your performance. She's the impossible to impress authority figure; most folks I know have a parent that's impossible to impress, myself included. I understand your difficulty.