Digging me down

Have you ever felt like everything in the world was against you at once? Like the gods themselves conspired against you? Recently, my aunt and Grandfather passed away, both barely recognizable when I saw them before the final moment. My mother, who was a recovering alcoholic, has fallen into her old habits, as well as some new drug related ones if the foreclosed house she lived in is any indication. The only way I hear about her now is through businesses calling about debt collection, which I knew nothing abou until now. Many of my friends, in the wake of summer, have packed up and moved on. They apparently have changed their numbers and I can't get ahold of them anymore. The only thing I can think to do is move on as well. But it's hard to get out of bed everyday feeling abandoned by the people you thought loved you. I only write this on a whim as I lay in bed, the feeling of loss weighing heavily on my heart. It's my birthday today, so I'm hoping to hear from some of my friends, but it's doubtful. I wish anyone that stumbles on this well.