My depression blog for the month · 12:03am Jun 27th, 2015
Nightmares, dark thoughts, and much more.....
The reason why I don't post this on the groups re because I don't trust what they say, I only trust my friends or acquaintances or possible girlfriend If I ever get one.
So....*Sigh*
I had a nightmare that my mom died in a car crash, and I went full on berserk against dad and ran away....and died from a heart attack :(.
Also, I have mice in my house, there were about 6 in my house 2 years ago....don't ask please.
My life is a train wreck right now.......Felt so happy, but now I don't.
I have my dentist on the 13th to fix my teeth, and I really do want to brush my teeth I do....but when I brush my teeth or even touch it with my toothpaste and or toothbrush, just out-right pain....
So, pain all over the place. My gosh, mom is never gonna be able to do anything with me, my dad and I are never gonna fix our relationship ever again....and I am just so lonely.......
I am getting ready to cry, and it's been almost 3 years since I've Genuinely cried.....I need a hug or something 
I need my friends, cause I know I will never have a girlfriend in life...I will be alone forever........negative thought.....God...dammit....
ALONE FOREVER! 
*hugs* I will ALWAYS be here for you bro.
*hugs* here for you, my friend
(Hugs you tight) I will always be here for you bro. You're family to me. You don't have to be blood to be family.
*hugs* I promise, you are not alone, and you will never be.
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And I'm just a PM away if you want to rant/talk
I know everything may seem dark now, but what would life be if it was good all the time? It wouldn't be good if there was no bad.
I can totally relate on that father-part, I haven't talk to mine since christmas(and we live in the same house
But if you can try to stay positive, everything will get better, I swear.
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*Hugs*
You're gonna be all right, my friend. Just let it out as often as you can. It really helps.
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Thanks guys, I appreciate it :(
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(Puts arm around shoulder) As long as we're here, you'll never be alone.
(Sings softly)
A long time ago
A million years BC
The best things in life
Were absolutely free.
But no one appreciated
A sky that was always blue.
And no one congratulated
A moon that was always new.
So it was planned that they would vanish now and then
And you must pay before you get them back again.
That's what storms were made for
And you shouldn't be afraid for
Every time it rains it rains
Pennies from heaven.
Don't you know each cloud contains
Pennies from heaven.
You'll find yor fortune falling
All over town.
Be sure that your umbrella is upside down.
Trade them for a package of sunshine and flowers.
If you want the things you love
You must have showers.
So when you hear it thunder
Don't run under a tree.
There'll be pennies from heaven for you and me
Have You tried getting out? Or even convincing Mom marrying Dad is a mistake? Women most of the time win a lot in divorces and if You get the chance to talk to Her a bit immediately throw the subject on Him. But by all means if You want to figure out how to get away with murder I'll be glad to help *waits patiently for FIM users to explode at this comment* No nobody cares? Oh well it'll be easy anyways. After all before I became as strong as the Hulk I made different ways of burying bodies and destroying evidence. The backstory behind all that... You don't wanna hear about it.
3185841 They aren't married, they just live together, with me in the middle.....
3185933 ......That doesn't make any sense. If they live together and aren't married doesn't that give Your Mom the ability to say "Fuck you dude I'm leaving you"? If He keeps blaming Her for everything then She should've already left. Plus easy control to find a guy that's right for Her and if You make sure You work hard in school for a while and learn how to keep Yourself fed and well. She'll have not a single regret about leaving His ass. She'll think highly of You all the time too so You don't wanna let Her down. Hell if You actually leave FIM for months or Years we would understand. For Me it's all about making everything's life better
3185963 She doesn't want to leave, she has a job and doesn't want to leave me here, also....she just makes no sense .....
My dad is lost, I am just waiting till he dies and I can finally say that he got what he deserved -_-
3185978 She can always take You with Her. It makes sense to You that You don't understand. Centuries after I've been around watching them to this day forth I still don't understand so I give up trying. Also how in the world a youngling like You can die from a heart attack??? You've gotta be older than that if You think You can die from that.
3185992 Haven't died from a heart attack XD.
Just life really <:)
Bro yo ain't alone you got yo friends
3186005 Don't worry ill always be here and you will always help me.
Paradox
*hugs*