Of course the thing about feeling too intensely...

...is that you start to put measures in place to counter it, and some of those measures might be subconscious. So every now and again I feel nothing.

I don't want to feel nothing, but I also don't want to feel too much because I can't flippin' cope with it. It seems I'm not allowed an inbetween.

I also wish certain things that happened to me early in my life had not happened to me. I don't really know how to fix this. Maybe there is no fix and it's just my lot in life, in which case, fine but it would be nice to know if I was capable of fixing things.

*blows raspberry of frustration*

Edit: And now I have insomnia. Isn't this just peachy?

Comments

[Spiritofchaos227]

Wow, that sounds pretty rough. I may not understand what you're going through, but you have my sincerest sympathy, bro. I hope you figure it all out.

[socky_dude]

I so sorry! I can't say that I know EXACTLY what your going through, but I do know somewhat.
Just try to make lemonade out of lemons.
In the end, everything will be alright if you stay positive.

[CoffeeMinion]

Hang in there. Insomnia is an old enemy of mine as well.

...but since you mention it:

[Captain Wuzz]

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Thank you. Pretty low right now, so feeling "nothing" has passed, but now I have depression to contend with. Wince.

[Captain Wuzz]

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Just try to make lemonade out of lemons.

I'm not normally down for the whole "positive thinking" thing, but I did manage to get some writing out of it, so I guess that's one good thing.

[socky_dude]

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Yay!