Death of Creativity

Just finished reading a pretty decent FimFic that was completed last year. The ending left an opening for a promising sequel. But after reading the author's blog, they claimed to have left the site and possibly writing altogether after the story was completed. I wished I didn't understand the sentiment, but I do. I've been so discouraged from writing creatively that I've just avoided starting even though I have had several ideas I've wanted to express.

I know I'm just talking to myself, but even so I really wish I could get over my own expectations. Maybe if I can convince myself to overcome these insecurities, I can actually express something worthwhile. I know I'm not any good, but maybe if I manage to start and keep trying, I'll eventually make something meaningful. Until then, I'll have to revel in my mediocrity and do my best to improve. I'm talking to you, future self, if you haven't actually written something by the time you're reading this, why not?

The death of Monty Oum last month stung and left nagging thoughts in the back of my mind. Seeing the creative death of an author after having just discovered their work has rekindled those feelings. I have an idea for a short story. It's definitely derivative, likely already been done, and no doubt I won't be able to do it justice. And yet I'm thinking about hammering something out just to see what happens...

I'll likely come back to this post in the future without ever having made anything. But maybe, hopefully, I'll have gotten over these reservations. Only time will tell.

Comments

[Despoiled Vessel]

You better be working on whatever story you're conceptualizing as I type this.

The emergence of new authors... is quite exciting for me, to say the least.