How... and Why? · 4:30pm Feb 5th, 2015
Two of the most important questions in life, today more so than ever.
Today I ask myself the questions, how my friend died and why.
The answer I've heard of the first is suspected suicide, and I am left to answer the second on my own. He always seemed so happy, so exuberant and out-going, always there to cheer you up when you felt sad and catch you when you fell; yet that was the mask he wore only on the outside, from the cracks you could see that he was hiding the darker emotions away, trying to keep everyone else happy I suppose. He was a friend to all and when the news was given almost my whole school cried for him, but I didn't.
I was shocked, still am, I didn't know how to react and I still don't. I tried being sad but I couldn't make the tears feel sincere. I tried to be angry but I couldn't sustain it. So now I'm left with an empty feeling, not sure what to do about it. I guess I'll just try to forget about it move on, but I'll always remember him; he was such a nice lad and would've given Pinkie Pie a run for her money in his ability to cheer others up.
In the end all that really matters is that we did right by others, and that they remember us. And he certainly did right by me.
I'm not really sure how to end this so I'll just leave it here.
Suicide and depression can be tricky things to figure out. I'm sorry for your loss and hope the numbness eases in time.
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Thank you. It's weird to think it's been 2 years now and I can't help but wish I'd gotten to know him better or that someone at least had taken him more seriously... but that is the past now and he'd probably be upset if I let it stop me from moving-on to the future.
Thank you, for your concern but as I've said, it'd be an insult to his memory to have let this event consume me so instead I focused on moving on and now, although I hope I'll always remember him his death no longer affects me; I do not remember a dead man, I remember an old friend and the time we spent together before he left.
Sorry for the 'windbag answer': I get really waffle-y when I'm tired and I wanted to make sure I didn't give a false impression.
4682476 Nothing wrong with it whatsoever. I'd much prefer a long answer that makes things clear than a quick and vague reply.