Vent Blog · 1:14am Oct 5th, 2014
The following contains venting. A lot of it. Read at your discretion.
You know what's great? Having no self-esteme, constantly being lonely, having the nagging feeling that your parents think you're a loser, and overall starting to feel like a loser yourself. Know what's even better than that? The crabby old bitch who doesn't know what the fuck she's doing and gets pissed off at you for her own stupidity and gets managment to believe its somehow your fault, in turn causing the rest of your shift to be total shit and constatnly reminding you how you feel like a loser right when you thought you were happy again. Yeah, it's fuckin' GREAT. But the BEST PART of ALL OF THAT? Being pissed off at everything for no fucking reason and having literally no one around to comfort you. Not a friend, girlfriend, family memeber, fucking no one. Because I have no one, and never can find anyone, and at this point, probably never will because I can never doing a fucking thing about it because I'm a fucking loser. I can get as pissed off, angry, frustrated, furious, and overall fucking broken all I want and I can type all this meaningless bullshit all I want, and it won't do shit. It's not like I'll type this and all-of-a-fucking-sudden *POOF* someone who gives a fuck will show up and comfort me. Make me feel like I'm not alone, that someone understands, that someone gives a damn. Someone to wipe away all the angry tears and tell me that it'll all be okay. Because I'm alone. That's the way it is, and that's the way it'll fucking stay.
I'm ready to fall into someone's arms and cry now.
If you want a hug, I'll gladly give you one.
So I guess all of your loyal followers who are always here for you and support you all the way don't count as a shoulder to cry on, a someone(s) that "give a damn". I feel appreciated.
Listen, I am not going to be one of those people that goes "but you are so awesome and cool, you shouldn't feel like a loser", because you would never believe me, call me a liar, and continue to think even MORE less of yourself. The thing is though, no one can make you feel bad except you. Not your friends. Not your family. YOU. If your family thinks you're loser, WHO CARES!! You have 300 people right behind you to prove that statement FALSE! My Theatre class has taught me to not care what other people think of you. So I don't. I do as I please and be myself and I don't give a second thought that what I do will make people think that I am "wierd" or "a loser". I just don't care what they think, and you shouldn't either. If they think so little of you, then they don't deserve you. You are a beautiful person, remember that. So that's why I want you to stop focusing on the bad and look past it to see the good and I want you to stop being angry and to just smile and be happy that so many others care about you. You're just so blinded by your paranoia that you can't see it. First thing you should do when you wake up is smile, it gives will allow you to have a happier and brighter day.
You are beautiful.
Have a hug.
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You know, you're right. Absolutely positively right.
1: Yeah, don't care what other people say of you, why? Because if they think down on you, then they do NOT deserve you!
2: Beautiful Beautiful person, definitely. Don't forget that.
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Thank you. I was just really upset yesterday, and I needed some way of getting it out. I'm sorry if I offended you, that was never my intention. I just felt particularly lonely then, and I forgot how people actually do see me.
Again, sorry I was an ass, and thank you for putting up with it.
2508555 It's okay, we all need to vent out our angers somehow.
2508555 It's okay; I still consider you a good person. I do way worse shit, believe me.
2508555 we all still love you, don't worry. <3 you are a beautiful person
2508555 I'm always happy to lift a friend in need's spirit. Now, I don't ever want to see a blog like this again, alright? Now go, be happy and frolic in a field of daisies, then realize that is kind of lame and write some pone words
