WHERE HAVE I BEEN!? · 11:03pm Aug 26th, 2014
Alright, so I just got booped several hours ago and realized I haven't updated anything on this site since April.
Guess I got some explaining to do.
First of all, I apologize to everyone who has been waiting for updates on Succession, Carpe Diem, and Genesis. If you're following The Seer of Truth, stop it. It won't happen.
I'm sorry for keeping you waiting, but in many ways, I've felt even worse about what I've been putting off telling you all.
The TL;DR
I'm tired of the Dark genre. Sorry.
The Super Long Explanation I Always End Up Doing
Sometime last November, something as simple as me misinterpreting some test results and thinking I'd failed an exam got me thinking. A lot. I've always been an introvert person, and I've always been really good at introspection. When I found myself confused with my reaction toward failing an assignment for the first time in my life, I started reflecting upon my general psyche and the development it had underwent in the past few years.
One thing led to another, and suddenly I had a minor depression. Yay.
While I explored the various problems and issues of my mind that had all piled up to form a depression, I started finding quite a lot of parallels between them and certain elements of my writing. Being an introvert person, I've been good at bottling up various frustrations and inner conflicts and instead using my writing as a means of venting. I've been doing that for many years now, I realize.
A fundamental duality in the driving forces of my mind is sparking a conflict that has led to a near complete loss of motivation. Succession's major conflict? Twilight going through basically the same, just, you know, with magical soul-draining and the apocalypse.
My depression took hold late November/early December, and look at that, the 4th of January I publish a story about Celestia with a depression.
What has changed, then, since I started writing, since I created a FIMFiction account, and since I started Succession, has been the fact that I broke my bottle, so to speak. I no longer hold on to that many of my negative feelings, and thus I have nothing of that sort to pour into my writing anymore. When I'm feeling down, my self-assigned therapy now consists of me talking it over with a friend, as opposed to opening up a Word-document and killing a dozen ponies.
I feel a lot healthier without the compulsion to kick a pony in the teeth through my writing every few days, but I also know that there are currently 466 people out there who have favorited Succession along with several more handfuls favoriting my other stories, which are all pertaining to the Dark genre to a lesser or greater extent. I really want to finish them, I feel I have some sort of responsibility to do so, and I'm really tired of not having a single completed story on my story list, but I just haven't felt any strokes of inspiration for them in ages. Succession is just too long and too dark for its completion to seem realistic, and without that story, my motivation to finish the rewrite of Genesis dwindles. Carpe Diem is still a possibility, provided I can overcome a long-lasting writer's block on it.
In Conclusion
As it stands now, I've put Succession and Genesis on an indefinite hiatus, with little chance of them ever becoming active again, and Carpe Diem on a not so indefinite hiatus. Sorry.
If anyone is interested in at least getting some semblance of the rest of Succession's story, I can try to spruce up my original story line a bit and provide a super-abridged version of the story. MAYBE with a few of the more awesome chapters written out properly.
I haven't given up on writing, nor pony writing specifically, I just haven't been very productive the past few months. Been working on composing a few new story lines and started actually writing one of them a few weeks ago. The going's still really slow, though, so no telling when or if I'll publish it.
Sorry once again for disappointing you. I'm pretty disappointed too.
This might be a stupid question, but if you can't write something depressing because you're not depressed anymore, can you write something hopeful? Would it be possible to rewrite and restructure what you've got into something a bit more fitting with your current mindset?
Well, it's always a kick in the teeth when we realized not all stories can be finished, ours or others. (Not one of my hand written stories--fanfiction or otherwise--has yet to see the light of day due to incompletion or indefinite writer's block)
It's good to hear you'er still writing, though! And I can always wait for a good story - some off the best I found while updating here might have updated once or twice a year.
Besides, if you're feeling better, aside from the instance of disappointment, that's more important anyway.
Is this because I introduced you to CK2? It involves killing, a lot. Anyway, you know where to find me if you need support.
2404246 Well, Succession is a really long story, which makes it rather rigid. I really doubt I can, but I'll see what can be done.
I'm thinking of writing out the most important chapters, and then abridging the stuff between. Even if some of them were really dark, I think I'd still really like to write them. There was just so much filler that I didn't feel like writing in between the story's more powerful moments that I did wanna write; it started becoming too much of a burden.
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Yeah, what's up with that? I think only one of my favorites has a sorta regular schedule.
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I believe it's because those writers aren't pushing themselves for output and are instead writing when they feel most comfortable, such as putting the pencil down when life gets hectic. I'm all for it if that lets the quality soar, though!
2407248 so does this mean you will write agen for it because it's a great story. Corrupt council that's a fraied and put a bandar on things . Lesbian council member that has the hots for twi but also wants to kill her. Pulse she never gets the time to make her son. I think the heat on earth would disappear faster
2407248 I do hope you can at least get an abridged version of succession out (and for some of your others, but I admit it's really succession that I want to see finished. Even if you don't, I wish you luck with your other stories.