Hello, FIMFIction. · 5:38am Jul 14th, 2014
I just have some things on my mind that I need to write down.
I've been writing now for what feels like quite a while now. I remember getting into the furry fandom when I was around 13, and the many fanfictions of the time drew me to want to write. I got my start writing with simple, silly smut fics. I was proud of them at the time, but now as I mature, I feel that I find it hard to break away from that. I feel that my skills as a writer seem to dwindle the longer and more complex my ideas might come. I have many different chaptered stories that I've dropped, because shortly after beginning them, I find myself dissatisfied with my own writing to a point that I can't find the will to want to continue with them.
I have decided that with my most recent story, An Exile's Journey, I want to write through that mental barrier that keeps me from finishing stories. At first, I thought to myself, "This is going pretty great so far, I think." Sure enough, though, in the past week, after the last chapter, that same thought has wriggled into my head. I am going to continue to write through dislikes, potential harsh words (that also hopefully come with some sort of constructiveness), and my own mental blocks that tell me that what I am doing is substandard.
I do hope that if I bear down and actually work my writing muscles long enough to get a finished, coherent story down, that my writing will hopefully naturally get better. At the same time, I feel that the beginnings will seem even worse. Maybe if it comes to that, it will just call for a rewrite of the earlier chapters that I'm not as happy with.
Even though I'm a musician by heart and trade, I don't know if I could stop writing. I find it a fun release from life sometimes, and it lets me tell stories that I want to experience. Even though I'm putting my stories out to the public, I write just as much for myself. I don't know if that's selfish, and against what the art form is truly about, but I don't know if that's a question that can really be answered anyways.
I think writing all of this down in second-person and making it public help me to gauge my own thoughts.
