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Just a humble brony who aspires to write enjoyable things.

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  • 471 weeks

    Holy crap! So, just in case you didn't know, I have the greatest wife in the universe! (don't make me do the swing) And she has drawn me the greatest cover art ever!!!!

    Look at this shit. This is a little slice of Fallout godliness right here. Bow down to Molestia and fuckin' present those backsides!

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  • 473 weeks
    Fire Ghost Teaser

    “She called for you, Zealot. Even as she bled her last all she could say was your name over and over. She screamed it, she rasped it, she gurgled and cried it. Oh it was such sweet music. Her skin was, mm, sumptuous to say the least,” the Flayer purred. “Such a supple hide, so unlike my normal fare.” The creature clucked its tongue in distaste. “It lasted me for quite a while.”

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  • 475 weeks
    Okay... So...

    Okay… so it’s been how long since I put up a Fire Ghost chapter?

    That long?



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  • 488 weeks
    Why? Maybe.

    Why? Because it’s three in the morning and I can’t sleep.

    Because that line has been stuck in my head for three hours now.

    Because my mind is a swirling vortex of motionlessness right now.

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  • 489 weeks
    NLR: Leviathan, Get Youself In The Story!

    That's right! At the conclusion of some chapters I will pose trivia question on sci-fi or the nature of the story! The first one to guess them correctly will get to name a captain and a ship and appear! Name, Ship Type, Ship Name. And I'll fit it in at next opportunity!

    Why am I doing this? Because I looooove it when other authors do it.

    So, first two questions.

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Why? Maybe. · 8:29am May 15th, 2012

Why? Because it’s three in the morning and I can’t sleep.

Because that line has been stuck in my head for three hours now.

Because my mind is a swirling vortex of motionlessness right now.

I am driven to this point of existential quandary by a nihilistic impulse towards self-destructive physical and emotional tendencies. Cruelness, bitterness, regret, and apathy. Cruelness by the way is more than just an action; it is a state of mind. No one has ever beaten me as thoroughly as myself.

As I said, nihilistic, self-destructive tendencies. Nasty combination all around.

Sometimes… just maybe… every now and again… perhaps… there may be a slight chance… a narrow band of possibility… that there could be the shadow of… a sliver… of a portion… of a possible causality… that I may just… sometimes…

Not want to sleep…

…because I know I’ll have nightmares.

Some days they’re a shadow, lurking behind my eyes, waiting. Just waiting for me to lower my guard.

Is it so strange, that in a corner of my mind there lurks a hidden yearning for a night goddess to come and take away my dreams?

Maybe tonight I don’t want to burn alive, or be buried alive, or be eaten alive, or be crucified, or dissected, or drowned. Maybe tonight I just want to be awake, letting the uncoiling threads of my conscious mind become one with a nothingness brought on by sleep deprivation. A half-aware state which touches on the insane. Did you know that not sleeping for more than four (or was it more?) days can have you legally diagnosed as insane?

There are times when I am the writer, thinking of some creative horror, and there are times when I am tormented. I’m not trying to be attention grabbing, or overly dramatic. My wife has been a dream interpreter for several years (a very good one at that) and some of mine even she doesn’t fully understand.

I don’t want to go to sleep.

Sometimes I’ll make excuses, like ‘life is too short.’ Or ‘just one more episode’ or ‘one more page.’ And sometimes it’s even true. Some nights, like tonight, I don’t want to dream. I want my mind to stay still.

And sleep without dreaming.

Red is the Winter. Red is the Autumn. Red is the sky so colored by blood. Red is the tide which is so like a flood.

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