So, uh... hi? · 7:07am Dec 17th, 2013
Oh, don't give me that look. Do you really think I understand myself why I just kept on ignoring everyone? I mean, that's what I did, let's not pretend otherwise. I was on the site, I read stories, I freaking READ the comments you people graciously took the time to send me, and then I just blow you off. And not particularly in a nice way.
At the beginning, I really had no idea what the living hell I was doing. I was just following my instincts. Shitty instincts, maybe, but that would be a first time for them. I eventually managed to figure it out. Or at least, I think I have.
You see, you guys may not know it, but writing for you is stressful as fuck. And it's not cause you're demanding, or condescending, cause you're not and I would be a complete and total dick if I said you were (given the fact that you people are among the best audiences I could possibly have wished for). Really, it's all a matter of the things that come when you post your work online for other people to read. There are things that just happen. Things you gotta avoid or anticipate, which I didn't, and am now paying the price for.
I mean, first of all, there was no fucking way I ever imagined Just Another Average Tuesday to skyrocket to the level it did. So when I first started writing, it was all fun. Games. A little experiment, a walk in the goddamn park. It was for me, and that's who I was writing for. Not to please other people. I was writing because it was a much-needed and enjoyable way to siphon the assload of power fantasies and mythic worlds my chronic daydreaming syndrome had been constantly coming up with since childhood, spurred on intensely by my new discovery of the fanfiction database. It was for me. I was doing it for me, myself, and I, and that was simply it.
And then I posted it. I posted the first chapter of JAAT (which, by the way, I still think is a piece of crap), and began getting comments on it. Good comments. People liked it. People wanted more. And that was great. Seriously. It made me feel like freaking Korean Jesus. I was the best. I was on top. People were taking the time to view something I created, and were liking it and asking for more. And you will not BELIEVE the effect that had on my self-esteem. I grew more confident. I worried a lot less. It changed me into a better and much happier person, and you can bet your balls I can still feel that effect today. I absolutely love it, and thank you people from the bottom of my heart for it. It strengthened me.
So it continued. I posted; people commented; I posted more. And it just kept on. People liked it. Tons of people liked it. Freaking unbelievable amounts of people. I glorified in it. I loved it.
And then it started to suck.
I want to emphasize as much as I possibly can how this is NOT anyone's fault on this site, nor on FanFiction.net. It just happens. It is unavoidable. A force of Motherfucking Nature. Sooner or later, it just gets to be this way. I sit down to write, and I realize I simply don't want to.
I want the attention. I want the praise. I want all the goody-goods that come from posting a new chapter. But I just can't make that happen. I sit down: nothing. Not even a flicker of a spark. That last chapter I posted? What was it... a freaking year ago? That thing was a complete pain in the ass to write for so long. I was drawing from air. I was trying to force ideas, force the pen because I wanted the attention. But now I just realize that isn't going to come.
I'm done, guys. I realize that now. I have to stop forcing myself to stress over these stories I write for you guys, because that's who I'm writing them for. For you. That needs to stop. I gotta stop writing purely for the praise, because that just isn't working. I need to get back to the stage when I was writing because I damn well pleased to, not because you guys were telling me to hurry up with the next chapter.
Keep in mind I'm not making any promises here. I want to keep writing, and hopefully I will. I know I will. Whether or not what I write will be fanfiction, or even My Little Pony fanfiction, though, is not certain. I've written some purely fictional stuff. Maybe I'll delve into that. Maybe I'll write some more of JAAT or Elite. Maybe I won't. I'm guessing if I do post more on this site (which I'm still gonna spend a lot of time on, don't think otherwise), I'm probably gonna try for some new stories, using any one the millions of ideas I've tried to keep bottled up in my head, but again, I dunno. I just... I have to break this cycle.
I just gotta write whatever the fuck I want.
- Flamesinger599
Hi!
And I don't mind waiting 
Don't worry.
If you're really stressed out about continuing the story, take your time. I'd love to see what other ideas you come up with in the future.
So in other words, don't stress. Or else you'll grow older in bad way.
I'm glad I clicked on that random notification when it popped up! =D
Hey man, no worries! While it's true that I adore Just Another Average Tuesday (it has ponies, dragons, and transformations in it! It's awesome!) I don't have my problem with you quitting because you want to.
Don't worry about it! If people get pissed, who cares? Though, honestly, I doubt many people will
Stay happy my friend!
Well whatever works for you.
I write for my readers. Is it stressful? Sometimes. Is it worth it? Fuck yes.
1617240 <-- This 1000% but if it's not working for you... oh well, are you planning to continue your story or write a new one(s)?
Meh, do what you want :) The story will be there if you ever feel like writing more on it, and if not, that's your decision ;) It was nice of you to come forward to tell us about it.
Good luck on finding that spark again!
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Like SkullGreymon guy here:
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dark digivolution is scary thing.
just have fun doing what you want.
Just write what you want I suppose... if you need help you could join our writing group on Skype? Let me know in a PM if you want to. I did love your story, but I would never want you to keep going on something you lost interesting in. Maybe slap a hiatus tag and start a new story for fun? Just a thought, good luck!
take your time no need to rush
aww... the best stories are always written for fun... so you should stop. find something else and go with it or maybe write shorts. who knows, it could revitalize that spark for your other stories.
Hey man that's the most important thing. I've been writing for a year and I have, maybe, 20,000 words on this site. I have a lot of ideas (i.e. five stories and a metric fuck-ton of plans) but a lot of the time I don't feel like writing.
I guess the most important thing to remember is that while you may get popular from writing, popularity is a drug. It's the opiate in writing that sometimes comes. If you aren't careful you lose the artistic vision to the opiate, and then you lose both.
As long as you write selfishly, with yourself in the center of all things, you'll make it.
Carry On
wow
gj 
Hey, no problem. I got the exact same feeling with one of my earlier fics, if it doesn't come, then so be it. You could always just put it on hold or scrap it entirely and then write something you actually feel like writing.
Well, there we go. Following the path I've taken:
"Fuck you, I do what I want! Okay, maybe not when it impedes on the liberties of others, but I'll still do what I want!"
As for daydreaming, it happened to me a lot as well. Wish I could just dream whenever I felt like doing so.
1617730 But... but! It's been months! I've already eaten all my shoes and half my leather jacket! Please!
1620095 Noo!
1620123 THE HORROR!
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I'll admit I hadn't thought of that. I'm not at all opposed to the idea (to be honest it sounds like it would be pretty cool), but I want to be positive that I'm not gonna continue the story before I try it, and at the point I am, I'm not positive of anything. Thanks, though.
-nods- yeah I hear yah. I might not have written anything that was nearly as loved as your stories, but I understand.
-smiles- so long as it makes you happy and can't have you hauled off to prison or the loony bin I say go for it!
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You should do what you do because you like to do it not because you feel forced. I love the story you've written and would be happy to so more but I'D be even happier if you do it YOU enjoy doing whatever it may be!
I understand... it still sucks, but I understand...
I do hate how so many fanfics start getting into the meat of the story (in this case, Celestia's Bullshit), then the author ends up losing interest right in that exact moment... it's really frustrating...
It's all way's when it gets to the best bits...
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well you see other Riders come back after being going since 2013 so maybe.
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Probably.
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unlikely but a small chance still exists