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    Some bad news

    Some of you guys may have realized that my recent story, "A Visit from Death" is no longer available and are wondering why. The truth is that I've scrapped the project. I know that some people may be upset about this, but I guarantee that you're not as upset as I am. And here's why:

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May
2nd
2012

Some bad news · 11:08pm May 2nd, 2012

Some of you guys may have realized that my recent story, "A Visit from Death" is no longer available and are wondering why. The truth is that I've scrapped the project. I know that some people may be upset about this, but I guarantee that you're not as upset as I am. And here's why:

When I first wrote the story, I had all these awesome ideas: Death was tired of her job, and wanted to finally be given the chance to be reborn, like all the other souls. She'd be sent after Twilight, who would cheer her up and give her new meaning to "live", so to speak. Death wouldn't complete the job, not wanting to take Twi from this world and would put in a last request that Twilight would be saved as long as she gives up her chance at rebirth. Death's superiors would pity her and give her the chance to be reborn, where Twi and Death would live together. Happily ever after, the end.

Originally, I loved the idea. It combined most of my favorite things together: The fact there was some kind of sentient being that ended us, the fact that even the immortal grow tired from their duties, and my hidden notion of being a hopeless romantic. But as I wrote the story, I couldn't seem to convey Death being tired of her job, instead I accidentally made her seem like a whiny runt. So I changed it. Instead of being tired of her job, Death would love her job, but is forced to quit. Honestly, I loved this idea so much more. I submitted the first chapter, which didn't really go into her character as much as it should have. I didn't expect much seeing as how my first story didn't get much attention, but I was okay with that. I knew that I had to earn that attention.

Imagine my surprise when I check my story before going to school and see 77 notifications in the course of only two hours. I was elated. I was so overjoyed that my story had been that good with only 1000 words. So I went to school feeling better then ever, getting at least 10 more notifications every few minutes, eventually getting featured. My second story ever got featured. Being 17 and kind of a hermit, I didn't have much to do after school. With over 5 hours I could devote completely to my story, I quickly set to work and got a decent amount of the story done. Not wanting to publish a chapter with a ton of mistakes, I figured I'd take the next few days to proofread the story.

Slowly, I started to hate my story. I don't really know why, but I did. The more I re-read the story and the more I wrote, the hate only increased. I honestly think I'm not capable of writing a continuous story. Having to base the next chapter off of the previous ones is too much for me to handle. Also, the pressure of writing a story good enough to keep up my featured status was too much for me. I know it's pretty silly and childish, but I couldn't cope with it. I started second guessing all my re-writes and changes I made, until I finally got tired of it and deleted it.

I know some people were really excited for it, but I just couldn't continue it. Who knows, once my writing gets better I might bring up this idea again and continue it. But until then, I'm sticking to one-shot stories.

Once again, I'm sorry I had to scrap this story. I'm truly disappointed in myself for not handling this better, and for ending this story before I got all my amazing ideas out.

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No worries. We all know that if and when you get back to this story, it's gonna be EPIC!

96141
Thanks man, I still feel kinda pathetic though :twilightblush:

*twitch*

i diddn't even get to read it yet.

96148
Don't. When I first came up with the idea for Fullmetal Pony, I was teriffied to put it up anywhere, so I felt pathetic for being afraid. The reason I put it up here was actually cause my parents found a comic page I drew that made them afraid I wanted to hurt my sister (Scary, right?). Anyway, after a long explanation, they finally got the message: What I draw has nothing to do with my feelings towards my sister. Anyway, after that, I actually worked up the courage to tell them I was brony and I even showed them part of the fic, which at the time was nameless. They actually said it was pretty good. That's what gave me the courage to put it up here.
I feel like I've just been rambling now, without actually getting to the point. Actually, I've forgotten what point I was trying to make

96157
I'm sorry :fluttercry:
It's moments like yours that make me feel really bad about ending this story prematurely.

96165 coulda left th' story up.

96163
Well even if you forgot it, I think I still got the point.

96168
In hindsight, I should have just put it on hiatus. But it's too late now, and I still feel bad about deleting it prematurely.

96175

Once again, I'm sorry :fluttershysad:
Eventually though, I will re-upload this story, and it'll be better then ever.

96189 *Peter Griffin voice* yeah.

Do you have people you can bounce ideas off of? That might help with writing multi-chapter stories and motivation.

Edit (forgot to add): Almost all the really good multi-chapter fanfics I've read, here on FiMfiction and other places, the author usually had people they could bounce ideas off of while writing the story. I believe it helps get rid of bad ideas, rid of some obvious plot holes, etc.

96234
I have no one I can personally talk to, but another user has offered to edit my stories.

Sorry to hear that, but I fully expect that you'll bring it back, if your Muse gets frisky enough. Getting a few people to bounce ideas off of can help if you feel like you are choking anytime your effort passes a certain length, believe me, a gestalt can really spark things since creativity can feed off multiple viewpoints looking at an idea. :twilightsmile:

I could talk to you. After all, I'm also looking for inspiration, and I actually love your story. If you don't want to talk to me, I'm perfectly fine with that. :pinkiehappy:

96252
I've had several people offer to let me bounce ideas off them, and it really feels amazing knowing that people actually care that much.

96254
Well I'm glad you liked it, and I'm sorry I deleted it. As I said above, I've had several people offer the let me bounce ideas of them, but it never hurts having another person.

BR

Awwwwww....:fluttercry:

Well, I'll be glad to help! :pinkiehappy: I'm going to start by WATCHING YOOOOOU! :pinkiecrazy:

wow, what you're experiencing is exactly what I am experiencing, like to the dot. I'm a young writer as well, and I found myself disgusted with stories that I tried to make multi-part. I have decided that my one-shots are a lot better anyway, and knocking out a story in one full-swoop is way easier on the conscious. I don't know if you are planning on rewriting it, but don'tchu get discouraged on me! If you are as great as everyone says, then I know you're strong enough to rise from the ashes.

Critics, even yourself, can be pretty brutal. But what makes us writers unique is that we can take the beating, pick ourselves up, and keep on fighting.

Remember that you aren't successful unless you have a equal amount of a fans and haters. :derpytongue2: I kid, but seriously, you got this in the bag. You've got a bright head on your shoulders, and I'm sure you'll be a shining star in the near future. :raritywink:

That's good to hear. I'm sure there are alot of people out there willing to help. Its always a sad day when a writer stops writing.
Edit: Or in your case, gets angry at their creations.

96322
I'm definitely planning on rewriting it, and thanks for the encouraging words :twilightsmile:

When a story ends before it really end (so to speak), tis like a soul died.

Honestly, you should have kept it up, my friend. The fact that you DID hate it kinda just marks you as a GOOD writer, and it doesn't mean the story was bad. You may never know now, but the story could have been a great success if you had just rolled with it. Writing isn't truly about whether what you write is good or not, but if you enjoy writing it. I disagree with your decision, but you do have the say so when it comes to your own writings. I believe you should have just went with it and let the readers decide, but oh well. At least you let us know what happened. It is pretty disheartening though, because I saw quite a lot of potential in what you had. It's a shame, really.

Oh well. Rant over. Again, thanks for explaining this to us, at least. :ajsmug:

96420
It's really good to know that you thought so highly of me, yet bad at the same time for the exact same reason.

On the plus side, I already plan on rewriting the story and putting it back on here.

I totally understand, man. The pressure's a pain; still, though, props for making a story concept that I genuinely enjoyed. I hope to see more of your works (one-shots or no) in the future. :twilightsmile:

Thats ok. The pressure was just to much and thats completely understandable. As far as you hateing it goes I think you were just subconciously angry at death not turning out the way you wanted. I hope to read some good one shot stories from you l8r :pinkiehappy::twilightblush:

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