So hey again · 6:18am Jun 8th, 2013
So I'm thinking of quitting my current job and trying to find something else. My level of dissatisfaction with my job has reached new lows and I just can't see how my minimal pay is really worth it anymore. I'm angry at management and I get angry at customers and I'm constantly dreading going back the next day and I'm depressed and it sucks and I hate it and I just don't think any amount of money should be worth this. But I can't quit because my car insurance is fucking ridiculous and all the money I'm making is going towards that.
And I've gotten into a bit of a quarrel with a dear friend of mine and now I'm confused, even more depressed, anxious, and just tired and worn out. I feel like there are daggers in my heart. I'm forcing myself to eat because even though I've had hardly anything in the last 24 hours and I'm considerably hungry, I don't even like eating. So I forced myself to make a sandwich about an hour ago and I managed to get that down but now I just feel all kinds of empty.
And I haven't logged on in weeks, I have no idea how my group is doing, and one of my admins has asked to resign. It's not good for me right now. I just want to sleep.
I sleep a lot. It sort of helps. Not so much when you're not eating, but... well I could lose a few pounds, so I'm fine I guess.
I hope things get better, Alexander.