Just a ramble. · 8:24am May 26th, 2013
There is always a time in life when you feel down for no reason. Then there is times when there is a reason for it. You wish that reason was not there but deep down you need it. You feel it. Then some times life is a c**t and kicks you when your down.at the same time it offers a hand to help you up. I guess life is confusing and cruel but you live with it. For that is my definition of life. You hate it but at the same time you love it.
Still doesn't help when you feel down. Walls get darker, the sky is overcast and cold, life seems dull and you think yourself to be nothing but a grain of sand in the sea. Drifting by without reason or purpose. Then opportunity presents its self as a clam. Willing to take you in and make you something. To make you shine. To make you worth something.
I look up those lucky enough to be taken and know that might be me. An Idea like that, a dream like that can drive us. It can be our goal in life.
My goal is a simple thing. To live each day and make just one life that bit better. My boss and co-worker shoe horses to make some money. I shoe horses to know that once I leave those four shoes make that horses walk easier. I pass the town drunk on a daily basis. Most days I have a few things that I bought to eat. I give them to him. Nothing is said I just hold my hand out with my offering, he shouts and mumbles at me then takes it. I the walk away. I go to the city and see the homeless. The cheap hat on my head I don't need. I got pleanty of hair. I give to one guy.
I never expect something in return. I just do it.
Each day, weather we mean to or not, we wear a mask. A mask to hide our true selves in hope to be accepted. I wear one. I'm the happy guy in the group. Make people smile and laugh. Although with the smile on my face I know on the inside that later I'm classed as an immature idiot. I'll still smile. I then think I've found a friend. I tell him my secrets and he spreads them around carelessly. I get a girlfriend. I give her my heart. A few days later she tears it up and asks for a refund. I still smile. I walk home get in the door and get greeted by the memories of the family that was perfect. A loving mother and father and a smiling me. I look at the present. A mother who cannot wait for me to move out, a dead father and stepfather desperate to take away my smile. Nah, I still smile.
But there is a day when even the bright sky's can't cheer me up. I don't see the drunk guy and there a no horses to shoe. No friends to hang around with. A day like that is a day I don't smile.
Today is one of these days. I've decided that if I'm gonna make some good friends in this fandom Ill burn my masks and be me. We may never meet in person and I'm just the words on the screen. Just know. The words from me a genuine. I love this fandom and I love it's ideals, it's art, it's music. Most of all I love the people that make it what it is.
I might not be smiling to day but I will forever be proud that I'm part of this fandom. And if you've read this far. Your awesome and should be proud. And if your proud of that be proud that you support the art, music and ideals of this fandom.
Be proud for you are a brony!
Wow man. Sounds a bit like my old life a few years ago. Even though thats years ago i can't get rid of it. Anyway back to you. Your lucky even if you don't think you are but you are. I have many reasons why you are lucky but I will only say a few. 1 you have plenty of fans here who will support you when ever. 2 you are lucky to be a brony ( I don't know how to put this in words but I will try ) because if you wernt your life would be worse because you would have nothing to cheer you up. Sorry if that one makes you more sad. 3 you lucky because your here and not someplace else. 4 your lucky because you are you and not someone who wants you to be someone your not. 5 you are lucky because people care about you even if you don't know it or they are far away. That's all I can say. I would go on but that would take forever to read. Never let the world grab you by the balls man and don't let it take you down. If you ever need anything just give us a shout and most of us will be happy to help.
i teared up while reading this. i dont really know what to say.
sometimes life just gets you down, but never forget that you are an awsome person, and I think that you derserve better.
always remember that there are a lot of us out here, and if you ever need anything just say so and we will try to help.
hope things work out for the better^^
I'll admit, it made me tear up a little too...
I sometimes have random bouts of depression for no reason at all, this sounds a little like what happens to me when that happens...
I could say that I know how you feel, but the best option, it would seem to me, would be to offer you a cyber hug and a brohoof in the hopes that it will cheer you up even a little.
Just remember that you have many friends, and we all care for you even though we may never have seen you face to face!