A Blog Post About Life · 4:29am Feb 10th, 2013
Hey, everyone. I think this might be one of the last few blogs I do. Maybe. I don't know. Anyways.
So, I'm not dead. I think. Just more of being reclusive, really. I've been sort of inactive on the site as of late for a multitude of reasons. Mainly, college-slash-senior-year-of-high-school, applying for more college, lack of time, tiredness, yadda yadda. Honestly I haven't even been reading fiction; and I really want to. I sort of come home and lose all remaining energy to do anything -- except slay dragons and shout at people, of course. And other stuff; see later-in-this-blog.
I think I'm done writing, quite frankly. I love to write, I really do. I love seeing what you guys think of what I write, even as I write this I occasionally see a favorite or new like or comment pop up. It's awesome. But I'm lacking in the imagination department. Four or so months of writer's block is a bit long. So whatever ideas I may eventually come up with, they can be left to other writers who deserve the chance to write something original. I will stick to what I do best; being a grammar nazi and retaining vast amounts of firearms knowledge.
So, on to "other stuff". I, very recently, 5 minutes prior to writing this, actually, discovered that a friend I had been talking to was not a friend at all, and rather what is classically known as a "troll". They were very convincing, and dedicated to their job of fooling me, but I suppose a stroke of luck is all it takes. I don't want to delve into any further detail than that. Anyways. Despite being the victim of said troll for a good period of time, I think it's actually helped more than hurt. I've learned a few things, or had things I already knew reinforced, about people, life, concepts, and so on.
First: people don't make any sense. They're predictably unpredictable. It's hard to find the good ones, but it seems like they'll come to you and stick with you; but don't take that as an excuse to be a recluse in your house like this here author.
Going hand in hand with the above, balance is important but hard to maintain. It's tough to balance being wary of people and being outgoing; too much of either and the results aren't great. That goes for most stuff. But when you do balance something in life, it works out pretty swell; and it's definitely worth it.
And going with that one above; everything is worth it, everything. What you lose is either gained later on or is replaced by knowledge. We learn what to do, what not to do, valuable things about life. and how to get through it in one piece. That knowledge is worth an immeasurable amount; it's usually known as "wisdom".
My friend told me a quote from South Park, by the character Butters, a while back. I don't remember it exactly, so I'll paraphrase: "if I could be happy like I was then, I know I can be happy like that again". That quote hit home with me, despite being from South Park (you get feels from the weirdest things, you know?). I've taken care to remember that, and will continue to do so for as long as I can. Because I know that it's true; even if it seems like I won't find happiness like I had again, a once-in-a-lifetime thing, I will. Since that happiness didn't last, that means it wasn't true happiness, and that true happiness is still out there.
Most importantly: trust is a very important thing, and everything that comes with it. Honesty, loyalty, all that stuff. It's like a rare gem, in a sense, like a diamond. It takes a lot of searching to find it; and I mean a lot. And sometimes you think you've hit the motherload, but it turns out to be a copy, a replica. Like that fake gold stuff, Fool's Gold or whatever; anyways. So then you keep searching for it. But when you find that gem of trust, you hold on to it as tightly as you can, and it makes you rich; rich with friendship.
Wow, that was pretty sappy. Still got it.
I'm no optimist; I consider myself a realist, actually. And that usually tends to lean towards the side of pessimism. But sometimes, even for someone who tries to view life as it is, one has to step back and look a little more closely at the small things, the few things, the rare things, and admire them for a good, long while. There's good and bad to every situation; I don't think choosing to see one or the other makes you any more or less an optimist or pessimist, but just acknowledging that both exist is what makes a difference.
In closing, I've learned a lot these past few months. About myself, about humans and brains and feels, about life, about what I want from it and how I'm going to get it. And I decided to ramble on before you good people. Maybe you can make some sense out of it and come to a conclusion, learn something new, take a step back and think for a moment about what I've thought about, what everyone should think about, because it's important stuff. It's who we are, what we are, who we choose to be and why and how. I've learned that friends are valuable things because they're the people you can truly trust; good friends, the ones worth keeping, are. I've learned that the world is filled with a whole lot of bad people, but the rewarding part is finding the good ones.
Brohoof a friend. Tell your family you love them, no matter who they may be. Pet a dog. Do some volunteer work. Smile at someone, it may be the only one they get all day. Go outside and look at the stars, and be amazed at how small and insignificant we are, yet how the fact that we are life is more significant than anything else. Admire life and all it has to offer, be it good or bad.
You're awesome. All of you. And you should all feel awesome. Believe you are awesome, because you are.
Gunsmith, signing off.
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Hmm, tis a shame you'll be gone. I still wish you only the best of luck in your future endeavors.
And now I'm sad.
May the gods be with you. Stay strong, and I wish you shall return one day, with happy memories, a clear conscience, a good education, and many stories to tell..
Brohoof, Live Long and Prosper, Goodbye, and all that jazz. Just don't forget, you're among freinds here.
Any chance you will get back to writing at some point? Even a little one shot can be fun at times.
Hmm, looks like im late for this farewell party... *sigh*
anyway i just started reading you story "for lack of a better word" and i love it very much (20 chapters?! really? that's very generous of you as a writer) and because i love it so i decided to snoop around for a bit. i gotta say, i did'nt expect to see this "feel" infused blog of yours... to say it was moving would be an understatement. hmm...
anyway i don't know if you're reading this but i just wanted to say hi and bid you goodbye (goodbye? hmm, not sure if you even left or just took a break). good luck in whatever you're doing now.
sincerely
- a fan
Wise words man, hope you’re doing well.