I am going to maintain a writing schedule again with "The Three Horns: The Ghost of Trotston Hall".

I am moving more towards regular writing and I will start maintaining a writing schedule again now. I have gotten stronger again, learned new things, discovered a lot about myself, learned from mistakes I have made and worked on getting my true personality back, since my friend has went into distance from me again in early December 2023. My mental health has improved by vast amounts. I feel strong enough now to dedicate myself more to regular writing. I will go and maintain a writing schedule again with "The Three Horns: The Ghost of Trotston Hall", my new story that I work on.

My plan is to dedicate every second day to writing, until I have written extraordinary amounts of words for one day or until it's getting very late and I start to write smörgh (yes, I made that word up).
A second project I am busy with right now is uploading a very large amount of videos and screenshots from shared gaming sessions that I owe my friend, as well as naming yet unnamed videos and screenshots prior to that. I am working on these two projects, writing and uploading, in tandem. One day is dedicated solely to uploading, the other day is dedicated to writing on the story and putting videos into the upload queue of YouTube (because the upload happens automatically once the videos are in and I need to do nothing more than to drag n' drop them and adjust minor settings, which takes very few minutes once the upload is complete).
Today is an Upload Day. Tomorrow will be a Writing Day. Then it's uploading again on Saturday and writing on Sunday. The same pattern follows on Monday and Tuesday.
I will keep this tandem pattern until everything is named, uploaded and numbered through (because Google Drive does not have a function to sort screenshots the way you want, so I number them at the beginning of the file name and use the alphabetical setting, which puts numbers first in ascending order, once all are uploaded), then, I will switch to a different tandem and replace the uploading with something else.

In November, I have participated in an online course for Mental First Aid. I want to be more proficient in mental matters, so that I can help my friend better if she is going through something. I got a certificate for participating and passed the final test at the end and I also got a very thick handbook that I want to dig myself through and take more notes about. This will be what I'll replace the uploading of the gaming screenshots and videos with once they are all online. After I have read everything in this book, noted it down and feel that I learned and understand enough, I will switch to another different tandem.

In early January, I acquired a book in a bookstore that I also want to read and take notes about, for better understanding a certain aspect of my friend's personality. This is private and only for her and me to know, so I won't say here what that book is about. But it is very important as well. This book is much thinner than the other one, but I feel it will still take a fair amount of time and thinking to get behind the subject matter and to understand it completely. Reading this book will replace the mental first aid handbook once I am through with it.

After these three things, I want to switch from the tandem schedule to a daily writing schedule. There are a few other things I want to do to help repairing the friendship with my friend, to further bring out and polish my true personality, to improve my mental health further still and a few things that have piled up for years now and that I finally feel the strength to take care of. But these are smaller things, that can be sprinkled over my schedule or that won't take more than a day or two to get done. They won't require a tandem schedule. And other than my writing and the other three things, there is for the time being no big activity I have planned that spans over a long duration.
Smaller things that take a day or two, I will be putting into my schedule here and there, whenever I feel that I made enough progress with writing that it is okay to do something else for a short time. For the most part, it will be daily writing once the other three aforementioned things have been taken care of. And when I have finished "The Three Horns: The Ghost of Trotston Hall", or if I just feel in the mood for it or get struck by sudden inspiration, I will also write away at any other story, be it an old and unfinished one or a new one (I also want to work more on that idea the trailer of "28 Years Later" has given me). When one story is finished, I'll go to another one.
I believe I have reached a point where I can branch out more and vary my activities, plans and projects again, instead of focussing on only one thing at a time.

Breaks during any of these are something I have not planned. Unless I feel absolutely, to a 100% and completely burnt-out from doing many activities or I get sick and come down with something, there will be no breaks in this schedule.

The first year after my friend has gone into distance from me was ups and downs. Then, something that has started even two months prior to the anniversary of her distancing, I suddenly fell into a state where I felt almost constantly very anxious and hectic and suddenly lacked strength to do much in October, despite a big plan I had (which was, the uploading of the gaming screenshots and videos I owe my friend). I was unsure where that came from, but figured it will blow over if I just give myself enough relaxation. But it grew worse at first, then calmed down around Hearth's Warming, but left me feel weak. I felt sure more relaxation will help, but it made me lethargic instead, like trapped inside a piece of cotton candy of Titan proportions that made me sticky all over and entangled my limbs and made me almost unable to move. The more I relaxed, the weaker I felt. This condition has lasted until yesterday. I don't know what psychologically happened there to me.
Yesterday, my friend gave me another wake-up call from the distance that shocked me and she blew whatever condition that was out of me again.

I feel active now, after writing all of this down. Even much more active still than yesterday when I got that wake-up call from my friend (this is a video she has sent me in Discord more than five years ago, when she wanted me to wake up because she was excited and hyped for me to write again). I have hardly slept, I didn't go to bed at all yesterday, was heading out to an early morning appointment on zero sleep, only slept two hours once I was back (and that, in my armchair, not in my bed) and soon I will be very close to 48 hours of operating on only two hours of sleep, but I feel so active and invigorated.
I am glad I could write this down and that it gave me an idea how to organize the bigger activities I have planned for the foreseeable time.

I feel ready to be a lot more active again.

~ Fluttercheer