Over 4 years. · 4:44am July 29th
Just realizing now.
It's been over 4 years since I created this account.
I was just some random 14 year old trying to write stupid shit about a show that I liked ironically, at the time anyways. My love as become completely unironic in the years since, but it's really odd to think that back then, I wasn't really in it for anything. I just hopped on, read some stuff, got inspired, and basically rewrote Colorless without the TwiDash, as some weird inside joke that only I understood. It was all a weird parody that I also took semi seriously? It's kinda weird. Earlier this year, I just completely deleted that story, as I've realized I'm just... Not fond of it anymore, and I want to do something actually good with the main character of that story.
I wasn't actually trying to write anything of quality for my first few attempts at writing stuff on this website, I was mainly just fucking around with stupid ideas bouncing in my little skull. But then I realized something, after publishing one of my stories (not sure which one I can't really remember); I actually really like writing. I started putting a little more effort into writing, piecing together narratives, coming up with weird stories to do with pre-existing ideas. Basically, I wanted to be unique. But then real life hit me like an 18 wheeler. My grades started looking like trash because I was devoting more time to my creations rather than my studies. It was actually a major reason I became inactive on this site, and just the internet in general. I needed to get my shit together. So I did; I got a job, I'm on my way to start trade school sometime next year, but...
Even while living my real life, there's always a small part of me that's always wanted to return to this hobby, to write some more fanfiction. And I did.
On Wattpad. I have regrets.
Sure, the story got traction, where I wrote something that people were reading, but I didn't really like what I was writing.
But I didn't really want to tough FimFiction, something about that just scared me.
"What's the point? No one even cares anymore."
"It's not 2021 anymore, you can't just spend all day in your room laughing at stupid mlp fanfiction."
"Stop being weird, you're a fucking awful writer, even by fanfiction standards."
Or something along those lines.
Basically, I was ashamed. I know a seem kinda like something who couldn't give two shits what other people think of me, and for the most part I don't, but this... I don't know.
Just something made me feel icky.
But eventually, as you could probably tell, I grew some balls, dropped a story back on December, and disappeared again. Yahoo.
Life is just like that I guess.
Yeah, I'd like to say that it's good to be back, but uh, this website seems a lot more empty than I remember.
Anyways, of any familiar faces think of checking it, swing on by, and if you're new, well, hey there. We have fun over here on the Spazz Kid account sometimes.
(Read the tagged story btw, it's awful and I wish I never wrote it. It's called progress!)
I think thats just because back then the site was new and over time you read most of the original stories, then after that many of them just use the same tropes or cliches, and they can still do it very well and make a good story, but they feel like the same thing just with a few changes.
On another note, i like your stories because as much as they can be weird as shit theyre unique and decently made.
feliz aniversario!🎉
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