Why I look for vindication · 7:46am Jan 9th, 2023
I feel that a number of times I get little to no appreciation for the things that I do be it here or even in real life. For some reason I find vindication as a form of mood booster to help ease that, but even that can only go so far. However, I look for vindication the most when my fanfics don't get picked to be on Equestria Daily especially on certain theme days. It almost makes me feel as my fanfics are really bad and may even feel like a waste of time. Who am I kidding here? I managed to get a letter of mine printed on the NY Daily News just a few days ago, and I'll probably get some more if needed long before Equestria Daily accepts any of my fanfics. Now I know why I like listening to Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift, because I feel that whenever I listen to that song, I felt as if she was describing me in it. There are probably other songs I can use examples to express how I feel, but that will just make it go too long. In some cases, I almost feel like Luna in that fan made video known as "The Moon Rises" where she starts out feeling very sad about how she feels being left out compared to Celestia, who is her sister, before starting to turn furious in reaction to all of that. Other times I just want to feel like The Weekend and save my tears for another day for being happy for finally making something rather than like Bonnie Tyler who has to face another total eclipse of the heart. Overall, I have always felt snubbed when it comes to those things.
I understand how you feel, brother. I don't usually get recognised for anything I do, neither. I feel happy when the few Persons who do applaud me tell me I did A good job at something, since I rarely hear it. I've been working on many projects for years, and I just keep most of them secret. Sometimes I think being famous while being unknown and anonymous is better and grants more possibility to be successful and appreciated.
Being ambiguous can be better, since when some One sees you as some personality, they can make-up in their head A personal version of you which suits them best. It's sad, but that's why celebrities, content creators, online, television, and radio personalities, and others like them are so successful. I'm an inventor, A theorist, A world-builder, and an independent scientist. I do most of My work in secrecy, and just hope to someday-help Humanity, even if I go unknown or unassiciated with My work.
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There are times where I wish I didn't always get the short end of the stick, which is usually the case for me.
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It's the same way I've felt for years. But I think someday you will get the appreciation and recognition you deserve. Until then, pour out your Heart and Soul into your work and be happy, because you always will have accomplished something great.