Well. This is new. And horrible. · 7:35am Dec 7th, 2022
I’ll be candid and short, since my typing is currently compromised by lack of computer and a ventilator that makes voice-to-chat darn near impossible.
UPDATE:
Got admitted to ER Saturday. Cancer is stage four now, metastasizing in my lungs. While the current treatment is fixing that or make it stable, I only got my own room after 40 hours in waiting. I’m on an aggressive round of radiation, and they’re talking about transferring me to another hospital for similarly aggressive form of chemotherapy, a different drug this time. I’m also on a not-ventilator because, while I can technically live on an oxygen tank, my lungs are so filled with tumors that they lack the raw strength to pull in deep breaths.
Positives! Ventilator is helping me increase lung capacity, and soon won’t need it except for sleep lying down. Every doctor and nurse here I incredibly kind, and seem to be well on top of things. I feel very confident in my care. The fact that they realized my last treatment wasn’t working, or possibly made things worse, they’re now hyper fixated on finding something else, a very good sign.
My best hopes? I get transfered tomorrow or the next day, and whoever is in charge of my new chemo treatment is OK with me doing it entirely in/out-patient and let me go home during the day. It’s entirely possible for me to get out there every day for treatments, and I’m up for making the drive. More likely realistically, it takes a week for them to do that same thing. ER said if I could manage 4-liters oxygen, they could discharge me with some tanks and a prescription.
Depressingly realistic, I’m just stuck here for at least two weeks, since I know the radiation guy has at least 11 more treatment for me, one every day.
Oh, but at least I finally found a doctor willing to outright admit to me I could die from this. An actual good thing in my book. I’d like a bit of candidness from my doctors.
It is what it is. My life has been fairly well disrupted, at least for the foreseeable future. If I could just sleep in my own bed a few days a week, it would be far more bearable. Hang with my dogs, my friends. But that is not on the table at the moment.
I’ll try to keep in touch more.
I hope you pull through. Stay strong.
I am so sorry to hear all this, friend. I wish you all the luck in the world.
I'll be praying for your speedy recovery.
I wish you the best of lucks, and that you recover from this to live until 90 or more.
That's terrible.
I can't... I just can't find the words.
A few months ago you were happily editing my stories and now...
Shit, man.
Hoping you pull through, man. Keeping you in my thoughts.
Oh goodness. Best of luck. Thanks for keeping us posted in spite of everything.
With something this bad, focus more on yourself, we can wait.
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So sorry to hear that. Sending my thoughts your way.
Shit, man. I'm so so sorry. I really hope you bounce back.
The situation sounds dire. Hoping for good results.
I'll be praying for things to go well for you. I know how much cancer sucks, and mine was caught early. Make sure to put plenty of focus on yourself during this time so you can heal.
Damn it. I am angry at your situation. I know it's simply life punching down but what I want you to do is to take your anger at this cancer, ours and everyone else and burn it in the furnace and power through this you hear me?
Don't give up, we are with you.
So sorry to hear about your condition. Really hoping you pull through, but hope for a good going if it gets to that 🙏
I'm so, so sorry dude. I hope things get better.
Man, really sorry to hear this news, but glad you're still in good spirits. We have your back as you fight this cancer!
i am so sorry to hear this, really hope the aggressive treatments work :(
Stay strong, boyo.
My best of wishes to you, Ninja. I hope you pull through this.
Geez, I can’t believe this is happening. Keep your chin up and focus on you, we’ll all be waiting for your triumphant return on bated breath.
Tell me your favorite Pony and I will draw you a really dumb but encouraging get well picture
I'm sorry that this happened and hope you get through this.
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He passed.
Just learned today. Damn shame. Rest in Peace.
Rest in piece. Thanks for the many laughs and tears.
Rest in Peace.
Rest In Peace you Amazing writer, your stories shall never be forgotten
Rest in peace ;(
Rest In Peace.
Rest in peace. My condolences to the family and friends
where ever they are now they are there with terry fox. both of them taken by a horrible infection before their time.
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I don't want to sound insensitive but I guess we're lucky Ninja only left 2 stories incomplete. I hope someone can finish those stories their own way.
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lets give it some more time before some one take over the unfinished ones
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I understand I just don't know how long it's been I just found out when I found this blog. I have Ninjas stories on my Read Later list but I haven't read them yet.
My soul just broke
Aw hell.
I have been mostly off this site for a long time due to real life things, so I only just found out the news that he passed away in December today.
The last DM I sent on this site was over a year ago, back when he first announced his diagnosis. Really wished I had extended that conversation, but between my IRL obligations and wanting to let him put all his energy into fighting the cancer, I stayed away.
I won't pretend I was as close with him as anyone else was, I wasn't. All I can say is that we lost an amazing creative mind, creating a world that I loved getting lost in, back when I had more time to do that. I loved the AnarchyVerse so much that I actually created a Group for him, so that fans of his work could join and have a place where they could look back to and try to piece together the full tapestry that was the world Ninja created.
Now, all we have are the memories and the stories that he left behind. RIP Ninja.
Damn, what a way to learn about someone. I had had one of his stories (it runs in the familly) on my to read list for awhile now, and finally got around to reading it (and LOVED it) and posted a comment asking on a possible sequel. Little dud i know its author had already left this world.
Holy crap, I had no idea. Was going to pray for his recovery, then read the comments. Don't know what to say.
Rest in Peace.
I didn’t know. I’m so sorry
God, this aged so poorly. His last words are forever cemented into the very fabric of this site.
RIP, Ninja. Never interacted with you on any thread or read your stories, but your stories are now apart of your legacy in this community.
Hope his family has been doing alright since his passing.
RIP :(