Sense · 1:11pm
Is like cheesecake.
Either way I've got it and got it bad. I swear, I've got... three? Four? Seven? Let's go with a lot of story ideas and I just cannot get myself to sit down and actually write. I keep finding excuses to do other things. Knowing me it probably can be traced back to a fear of my work not being liked, but then I remember this is the brony community and, well, you guys...
Don't take this the wrong way but as a group, you guys don't care about quality at all.
Oh, you'll notice quality when you see it, and you'll praise it. But you'll turn around the very next second and give 600 likes to a story that should have been cast into the fires of Mt. Doom. You'll get angry at shit like Mare Do Well and how OoC that was for everyone, but then you'll look forward to Surfer Boy (otherwise known as Shining Turd) and Princess Mindrape.
So unless I'm really insecure in my writing, it's gotta be something else. Lack of enthusiasm? Maybe. I haven't truly enjoyed everything the show had to offer since Season One. But then I remember that I liked individual episodes and could easily use them as the basis for fics. So not that. Not wanting to step on the toes of others? Maybe, but as you can see from this very blog post, I'm an abrasive person, so that's unlikely. Wanting to do something original and new? Considering I've got no real imagination and there's only a certain amount of stories in the world, just with an infinite amount of ways to tell them, that's possible. But that shouldn't be it.
I just don't know what's holding me back and it's driving me nuts.
I've had more stories in my 'read later' queue update in the last 6 hours than I usually get in a whole week. Was there some mass writing event I missed? Was everyone waiting until a couple weeks after the finale to start writing again? Did the fourth season start 8 months early? Why the fuck is everything updating all of a sudden?
I'm not complaining. Actually, I am. I don't have time to READ ALL THESE FICS!
It's honestly starting to look like we'll be getting that. We've got rumors of a TV movie, we know that Season 4 is coming, and apparently there's going to be a spin-off series for 'older girls' (but we all know who it will really end up being for :P).
Now, the TV movie I can deal with, Season 4 I can (hopefully) deal with.
But it's this spin-off series that's got me thinking.
I've seen people say it's going to be for all those darker stories people apparently want. I've seen people say they think it will be an overall story season rather than a lot of one shots. No mention of people thinking there will be relationships in it, but really, with an 'older girl' audience target and a name like 'Equestria Girls', why wouldn't there be? There probably won't be a focus on the Mane 6, but it's entirely possible we'll get a whole new lot of ponies to ship, and this time, quite possibly with reason rather than the grasping at straws some pairings seem to have.
I'm probably most excited for that show, simply because of the amount of romance fics I can see coming out of it.
And it has been far too long since I had any sort of real optimism for the show.
I never appreciated how hard it is to write something until I actually started trying to do so myself. It seems since the last time I wrote something (an insignificant 1000 word piece for a WTG back in Season 1) I'd forgotten how long it took me to do even that.
Now, I find myself with actual ideas, things that I want to actually put on paper (metaphorically) and put them out there for the enjoyment of others and I can't even get past the first word. That's not me being melodramatic by the way, I quite literally cannot decide whether I want to start the piece with a description, a piece of dialogue or a sound effect.
Then there's the lack of motivation to do anything before the end of the season. I guess it doesn't help that both of the ideas currently rattling around inside my brain could be completely undermined by the results of Season 3 (one by whether or not Twilight stays an alicorn, one by the method of which she becomes an alicorn), but I've got no problem throwing an AU tag on it. I guess that the answers from the finale could probably enhance the story, but I feel like I should start and edit later, not wait. Can't seem to get off my ass though.
Ugh, here's me being all emo and 'wah, I can't be a talented writer'. I'm sorry for that, that wasn't the point of this. The point of this blog was to say that I have a respect for all the authors out there among the fanon that manage to get their stories out there, no matter how cliche, no matter what genre it is, no matter what characters are involved and whether it's well written or not. You all managed to find that spark, you all managed to write that story and you all managed to get that story out there. For that, you have my respect. Even if I hate your work, you have it.
Unless it's so unreadable it sounds like that 'want to do more look like' thing, because there is no enjoyment in something that makes so little sense you can't even parse it. Well, I guess there is for some people, fics like Spiderses were popular for a time, so whatever.
It annoys me that those are gone now but the word counts for individual chapters aren't. It makes no sense to lose one and not the other.
And for those wondering (if anyone ever, for some unknowable reason visits this page), yes, I put this question in a blog for the sake of having a blog post.