As you might know, I'm writing a story now, the Z42, and at the moment I need OC foals!

17, to be exact. so if anyone have a foal OC, colt or filly, doesn't matters, tell me!

(With a small description of appearance and personality of course.)

So, go on, don't be shy!

Since no one is interested in my new story,, I will just stop now and delete the whole thing.

It was just my energy flushed down the sink.

If there was actually anyone who enjoyed it, then sorry.

-Zeph

Hey everyone!

Since a few days ago, I'm writing a new story, I think it's pretty good, but thanks to my horrible memory, I forgot to announce it.

So here is the blog, and there is the link, READ IT!

THE LINK!

Since it's my birthday nao (Feb 16th) people used to tell me a few kind words, maybe even get me a present, which used to surprise me all the times.

But the thing Blue Breeze committed is the top shelf of all: he gifted me this!

Oooooooooh-yeeeaaaaah!

Thank you Blue! :D

Yes, it's me updating, writing a new blogpost in this case.

Life was easy on me lately, I have everything in the way, in two years I will live in England, with a good paying job.

Yeah, I know, who the hell cares, but whatever, I thought telling this would be a perfect waste of time, so I told you, dear reader.

On the other hand, my activity on the site dropped to near zero, which is unfortunate... but what can I do?...

Maybe... maybe I will become active once again. Maybe.

Well, if anyone is interested in what happened to me, ask away, I will reply every question.

-Zeph out

Well people, I'm out from the deepest part of the wave and I'm rising, though this, as everything else, is just temporary.

What happened today was: I'm getting a mental and emotional breakdown, then quitting the university and going home, then planning out my future for the next half year.

At the moment I'm the good ol' myself again, noone have to worry about me.

If you read my previous blog, you must know that every BPD have these emotional waves, so as I.

But the logical part of my mind took over as every time, so it's done.

So, the good part above all of this, is that I'm working on a new story with my dear friend, Azzazel.

The story itself is a... oh wait a second, I shouldn't tell any spoilers! :P

But I give this out: it is in an alternate universe, it is in a 2nd person view but not self insert, and it will be quite long, though I will put it in normal sized chapters.

If my calculations are right, it'll be done and up on fim in two weeks.

...

Okay, I tell one spoiler, it's a romance, quite cheesy, and is based on my unstabile mental state, so 'me' there will be the me who was in the past weeks.

That's it, I say nothing else.

On a totally different end of the blogging: Atomic Vortex, a buddy of mine, have a rough time now, and I felt like telling this in my blog too, so wish that he get better. What he will do is beyond me, I tried to help him and I failed.

Oh well. Shit happens.

Zeph out

Everything is over.

I broke down. Both emotionally and mentally.

I have BPD, and I have every symptom of it.

Don't tell me that 'it's not true', I know it is, it actually answers the question of 'Why can't I socialize' and a lot of other questions like that.

I quit the university too. I can't be there.

I'm at home now, and I will go to a psychologist, then to the next of doctors who can cure me out of my state.

I'm sorry if I said anything offending before, check the symptoms of my state and you'll know why I said things.

I'm sorry.

Zeph out

Well, looks like some higher force is hating me.

For first, I got the good news: I can move in the inner dorm of the uni, so I don't have to pay loads of money for the rented apartment I lived in.

But.... it happened that I had to move in the outer dorm.. which is like hell.

Just for example: the inner dorm is literally 50 steps away from the uni. The outer is 25 minutes with bus IF I can catch said bus. If I can't, then I have to take a walk, a short 40 minutes....

But the bad things ain't end yet... the dorm is horrible, have no equipment and the worst: no net.

Of course I can buy myself net there and I did that, but the money didn't arrive to the uni's bank account yet (I sent it in tuesday and it's saturday now -.-) so I still haven't got net there. I'm at home now, in my real home, using my father's 'laptop', this thing is slower than a snail in sedatives

But anyway.

On the good side, thanks to the ridiculous amount of time, I got a few ideas, so I miiiight make a new story.... but I need to think out every little detail and it's difficult.

-Zeph out.

Whoo, things are settled!

I got my pc here in the apartment (or what's the name of it) so I have access to everything! (finally... -.-' )

So, I'm back to a normal work, though with the uni, so I'll have less time, I have to study and other stuff.

But at least I'm back! :)

I managed to get home!

So, I'm fully available in the weekend, if anyone have anything for me, then this is the right time to say it!

It was a long trip though, so I'm recovering at the moment, but just ask or anything, I'm finally back...