Hey everyone. I'm sure the question on all of your minds is "Where the heck is the next chapter in 'insert one of my stories here!!!!???" That is a fair question and I'll just tell you the truth. I have lost all inkling of motivation to write. In the case of Teardrops and Snowflakes I know exactly what will happen, but when I actually go to write it everything just seems to... come out wrong. In the case of Wishes and Music, well, honestly I've not thought about it that much.
Do I know when the next chapter of either story will come out? Honestly, no. I have no idea. Will I try my absolute hardest to put it out? Yes. That much I can promise, even if that's not what you guys want to hear. I have to say, I've been reading some of the messages that you guys have posted on my stories recently and I have to say, they've helped more than you know. It's nice, when you're an author, to know that people have a desire to see the rest of the story, regardless of what you think of it. I have to say though, it's more difficult than I thought to keep what's going to happen a secret. I just want to spew out the rest of the story in this blog post, but something tells me that would diminish the value of the story =P
I apologize. I know that I've said that a lot... I know that I've said many things a lot... It's difficult, though, to write quality when you have no motivation. It's like eating the rest of your dinner when you're full to bursting? Can you do it? Technically yes. Will you find any joy in it? No. Even if the food is delicious you'll be miserable.
Another, less... pressing? important? reason that I've not written is that I'm stressed out of my freaking mind. Most of it is worries about college (I am a senior in high school) and how I'm going to pay for it. I'm also having family issues and just other issues. It's not an excuse, just a statement of fact.
I truly do love all of you, and I'm honestly surprised that there hasn't been more hate. I wouldn't blame any of you in the least. I deserve it. Again, I have not quit. I have not, and as far as I know, never will quit. I love bringing the worlds inside my head to life. It's just a matter of bringing myself to do it. I swear that I will try my hardest to accomplish this and again I thank you all for standing by me. It helps so much more than you know.
One final thing: I know I've said this before, but I feel like it needs to be reiterated. I read every single message I receive, every single comment on my stories, and generally anything that I should read. Don't be afraid to contact me. If you want to just chat, I can talk to you through private messages. I'm not a scary guy =P