Yeah, this is stupid. I was working on something on my laptop, okay? It was relative to my course work. I had the three quarter finished chapter open as well. Everything was going good, but when I was finished, I unthinkingly closed the web browser.

Fuck me right?

I beat myself up over it for yonks. And it was like, amazing. I had a stroke of genius with this chapter and now it's gone.

So, I'll have to rewrite it to the best of my abilities.

Sorry guys.

On the other hand, my Alienware laptop arrived the other day. It's kinda neat, the keyboard and stuff lights up and everything.

I have a legit reason why I haven't been writing now! The second cluster of my course came in a while back, but since I hadn't finished the Health and safety crap for it, I hadn't moved onto it. I was having loads of trouble. Now though, I've finished that, so I've been working on this sort of thing:

Maps, levels, City maps (Which are harder to do) and making an actual working test level along with custom trees and textures so...

Before you guys start questioning why you suddenly got a notification about Ghosts of Skeleton's Past and going on only to see there's nothing new, THERE IS SOMETHING NEW!

Or rather, fixed.

I have made the ending much, much better. Spectacular even. READ IT

READ IIIIIIIIIT! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Come now, we all want to know how I changed it~

I am nineteen.

I don't feel any different

Alright, I tried to come back with something a little different. I didn't want to make another cheesy romance story. I didn't want to make another crappy little love story because I literally didn't know who to use. I'm sick of the phobia series! I have tried and tried and tried to rewrite it and it's not working, I failed my second attempt at getting my provisional license and now it looks like I spend another 150 dollars on renewing my THREE YEAR learner license because I couldn't get my damn license when I had MONEY because my brother went and fucked up his car.

Yeah, I'm still blaming my brother for me still not having my license.

*Sigh*

Absolution was my attempt at writing something a little more.... grown up? dark? Both? Whatever. I wanted it to be influenced and controlled by the readers, but it seems nobody really likes it. Thirteen downvotes to five upvotes, and I'm not even sure if anyone is even reading it. I doubt they are, they don't really care.

So what, it's mature but it's not smut? Is that one problem?

It's going for a really dark tone from a kids show? Is that another?

Maybe it's because people see the element bearers as all powerful, whilst I had them incapacitated in an ambush.

Or maybe it's because I created a new absolute power.

I don't understand... What have I done wrong? Where have I gone astray? I'm trying to write but...

I can't bring myself to do so.

Not very well anyway, apparently.

Absolution is a critical flop, I'm considering ditching it entirely. Maybe write a few one offs. No series, although I'll finish that eventually. If you guys have any suggestions... let me know.

Not that I expect to get many.

I have not been writing ponies.

There, I said it.

Given the dramas I have currently with writing anything pony related, and given my motivation to write anything pony related is gone, I have not written any more on any of my stories. I start by loading the story up, and it all goes downhill from there. Instead, I began writing something else that I wanted to write/try out. Since it isn't MLP, I can't stick it up on this site. Sorry about that.

I haven't uploaded it anywhere but on my mod blog on tumblr, of which I will not disclose the address, since I don't really want a sudden influx of the same question of 'why you no write ponies anymore!?'. No, I'm not writing much poneh. No, I don't really regret it either. One day I might go back to poneh, and with that in mind this account WILL remain open. I won't leave, I won't delete it. Besides, I am actually quite proud of some of my work.

In any case, I leave you with a few suggestions.

1: Don't restrict yourself to one thing, keep an open mind.

2: Eat bacon regularly

3: Read Nadake's and Basalisk120's stories, they're really awesome

4: Never let people tell you what you can and cannot do.

I may come back to all this again one day with fresh ideas and motivation. I will still be here to answer things, comment on things and otherwise be functional, but I can't see any updates in the near future. My Tumblr will remain open as well to record my ideas for the poneh universe, and you're all welcome to use any ideas I come out with myself, and Basalisk is fully allowed to use that cool little story idea I stuffed in his submit box when I was wired and incapable of sleep with my blessing.

Might still enter little contests.

I find it simultaneously amusing and irritating, the amount of complaints I'm seeing about the new episode/finale where Twilight is apparently converted to Alicorn form. It's annoying because it's happened and there's nothing you can do about it, so I kinda wish people would get over it, but at the same time it's amusing because I actually stopped watching the show at the finale of the second season so...

Heh.

No tables were flipped this morning at 3:30am

On a more serious note, I'm not dead. I know it's been a while since I've updated, and whilst I wish I could give you an adequate excuse, I'm afraid I only have one or two half assed, never accepted ones. Real Life is, believe it or not, quite time consuming, and work gets in the way heaps, since the Night is generally when I'm most creative and productive. I have been working on the final chapter for Ghosts of Skeleton's Past, and the followup chapter for Oneirophobia. But dark times struck, and my mind took on a more morbid twist, and thus began a bit of a little project on the side, dark and dangerous. Still Equestria based but....

I'm considering scrapping the Phobia series on here, at least until I have the motivation to continue rewriting them. Don't get me wrong, I'll leave Paranoia, Noctiphobia and Pyrophobia up, and probably Oneirophobia, but it will take some time before I upload another, mainly from stress and lack of motivation to rewrite them. I look at my work, and I can't stand it. Paranoia annoys me, Oneirophobia bores me, and Noctiphobia is just a gigantic clusterf*** in my head. The plot is so convoluted, so stupid, that the entire series suddenly seems stupid. Perhaps if I had completely free reign, I might had made something out of it, but I don't. I'll still complete it, in time, but I'll never write things as well as I want. If I could write like a few of my favorite authors on here, I'd be happy, but even practice...

I feel like I'm never improving. I lengthen it all, yeah, but has it gotten better? I don't think so. Long winded and annoying perhaps, but not better. I always told myself Literature was what I was good at. Apparently, I was wrong. I wrote the first draft for Paranoia in eight hours. Eight. Hours. It took me weeks to finish Paranoia, and even then I got sidetracked. Then everyone started praising my second least favorite work, and my blandest character Skeleton Grin. Think about it. Really, what's so special about her? I don't understand it. Nyctophobia was... I'm not even sure what that was. It was weird and spur of the moment.

In any case, reality, depression (Oh shush, I'm bipolar/Manic Depressive) and sickness has staved off creative juices, and that's why nothing's been done recently along with lack of motivation. Sorry about that.

So I add one little chapter to Ghost's of Skeleton's Past and make it to the feature box.

Woooooooow. You guys really like that one dont'chas?

Welp, It's going to take a while to update still, but I'm considering officially making it my main project again. I know you guys have missed little Skeleton, and to be honest I have too. She's without a doubt one of my more unique characters, and it's cute to write her really.

Well, minus the music  write her to. That's a whole different story.

What do you guys think?

ALRIGHTY!

Now, I know it's been some time since I updated anything. Wanna know why? The bane of my existence! No, I'm not talking about stairs, Freddy Krueger, Jason Goodnight, the demon from Mirrors, Nightmare moon, Spectre, The bitch from hell at work, the irritation of being killed by a Cerberus Trooper on Multiplayer ME3, the small chihuahua named Larry or the demonic Cheese grater. No, I'm talking about

Writers Block.

Yep. I've fallen prey to the very thing this story (Arc Angel) was meant to prevent. AND IT'S ONLY FOR THIS BLOODY CHAPTER! The rest of the chapters are pretty much all planned out! The entire journey in fact! The characters, their problems! Their backstory! How they interact! Everything is planned!

But this. Fucking. Chapter.

I WILL finish this story, I WILL push through this chapter, and I WILL deliver a tale of epic proportions!

You just wait and see!

The mod will pull through! Divining his next move with his epic Plasma ball!

I have to write this quickly since I'm going to work in a few minutes, I'm working all day today so an update for Arc Angel is incredibly unlikely unless I work into the night and early morning hours, and with work tomorrow as well that's really not a good idea. So the update for Arc Angel is going to be coming a little late this time guys, I'm sorry. I am only working in the evening tomorrow though, which gives me plenty of time to write up the chapter.

Thanks for understanding.

~Valorousspectre~